my field glasses, and one day I saw Plough at the controls of a radio-station traffic copter. I didnât even know he knew how to pilot a bird until then. He was wearing a black helmet and sunglasses, but I still recognized him.â
As Anshaw spoke, Mal remembered Corporal Plough trying to open a bottle of Red Stripe with the blade of his bayonet and the knife slipping, catching him across the thumb, Plough sucking on it and saying around his thumb, Motherfuck, someone open this for me.
âNo, Anshaw. It wasnât him. It was just someone who looked like him. If he could fly a helicopter, they wouldâve had him piloting Apaches over there.â
âPlough admitted it. Not at first. At first he lied. But eventually he told me everything, that he was in the helicopter, that theyâd been keeping me under surveillance ever since I came home.â Anshaw moved the tip of the shears to point at another thumb, shriveled and brown, with the texture and appearance of a dried mushroom. âThis was his wife. She admitted it, too. They were putting dope in my water to make me sluggish and stupid. Sometimes Iâd be driving home and Iâd forget what my own house looked like. Iâd spend twenty minutes cruising around my development before I realized Iâd gone by my place twice.â
He paused, moved the tip of the shears to a fresher thumb, a womanâs, the nail painted red. âShe followed me into a supermarket in Poughkeepsie. This was while I was on my way north, to see you. To see if you had been compromised. This woman in the supermarket, she followed me aisle to aisle, always whispering on her cell phone. Pretending not to look at me. Then, later, I went into a Chinese place and noticed her parked across the street, still on the phone. She was the toughest to get solid information out of. I almost thought I was wrong about her. She told me she was a first-grade teacher. She told me she didnât even know my name and that she wasnât following me. I almost believed her. She had a photo in her purse, of her sitting on the grass with a bunch of little kids. But it was tricked up. They used Photoshop to stick her in that picture. I even got her to admit it in the end.â
âPlough told you he could fly helicopters so you wouldnât keep hurting him. The first-grade teacher told you the photo was faked to make you stop. People will tell you anything if you hurt them badly enough. Youâre having some kind of break with reality, Anshaw. You donât know whatâs true anymore.â
âYou would say that. Youâre part of it. Part of the plan to make me crazy, make me kill myself. I thought the thumbprints would startle you into getting in contact with your handler, and they did. You went straight to the hills to send him a signal. To let him know I was close. But whereâs your backup now?â
âI donât have backup. I donât have a handler.â
âWe were friends, Mal. You got me through the worst parts of being over there, when I thought I was going crazy. I hate that I have to do this to you. But I need to know who you were signaling. And youâre going to tell. Who did you signal, Mal?â
âNo one,â she said, trying to squirm away from him on her belly.
He grabbed her hair and wrapped it around his fist, to keep her from going anywhere. She felt a tearing along her scalp. He pinned her with a knee in her back. She went still, head turned, right cheek mashed against the nubbly rug on the floor.
âI didnât know you were married. I didnât notice the ring until just tonight. Is he coming home? Is he part of it? Tell me.â Tapping the ring on her finger with the blade of the shears.
Malâs face was turned so she was staring under the bed at the case with her M4 and bayonet in it. She had left the clasps undone.
Anshaw clubbed her in the back of the head, at the base of the skull, with the