required.
After introducing himself, Moreh Pinkus rummaged through his briefcase for what turned out to be the attendance sheet. He read it over, and even then hesitated before speaking; it occurred to me that he didnât trust or like his voice.
He called my name first: âApplebaum, Sophie?â
âHere,â I said.
He looked up at me for a long moment, so long I wondered if heâd divined how much I didnât want to be there. But he did the same with the next person and the nextâcalling the name, studying the faceâuntil he said, âMuchnick, Margie?â and there was no answer.
It seemed possible that she had dropped out or was in the other class, and I hoped that she had or was. Margie Muchnick was one of the girls who lived on or around Foxrun Roadâthe Foxes, they were calledâand though I wasnât one of their main victims, nobody was immune; theyâd nicknamed me Sofa and tortured me about Eric Green.
Moreh Pinkus repeated, âMuchnick, Margie?â and she walked in and said, âHere.â
Inexplicably, she sat at the desk next to mine.
Margie was short and solid, dressed in a baggy sweatshirt, jeans, and black high-tops. She had a round face and wore her red hair in two bunches, big fat frizz balls. Her eyelashes and eyebrows werealmost white, and she had the yellow-brown eyes I imagined a fox might have.
I didnât acknowledge her, let alone mouth, Hi, as I had to my other un-friends. I pretended not to see her, just as I did when I ran into any of the Foxes.
There was an embarrassing silence while Moreh Pinkus waited for her to apologize for her lateness; then he looked down at the attendance sheet and read the next name.
To make up for Margieâs rudeness, Leslie Liebman helped Moreh Pinkus distribute our Hebrew I textbooks.
Margie flipped through the lessons and exercises. âFascinating,â she said.
At the blackboard, Moreh Pinkus wrote out the Hebrew alphabet; slowly, slowly, slowly he said the name of each letter, pronounced the sound it made, and waited for us to repeat after him.
It was hot, and Moreh Pinkus removed his suit jacket and draped it around his chair. When he returned to the board, I saw that heâd missed a belt loop. I noticed, too, that he wore a wedding ring, and I thought it might not be a bad idea for Mrs. Pinkus to look her husband over before he left the house.
I tried to focus on Moreh Pinkus, but it was hard.
Margie pushed her sleeves up, revealing a wristful of baby braceletsâseed pearls interspersed with tiny alphabet cubes on a chain that turned your wrist greenâlast yearâs symbol of friendship. Iâd lost mine in the ocean, but now, just as Morehâs wedding band revealed that he was married, my bare wrist seemed to announce that I was friendless.
I kept wishing Margie hadnât sat next to me. I wondered if it would attract too much attention for me to change desks.
She herself solved the problem. She had a coughing fitâa loud oneâand you could tell it was fake. I thought that she was trying to amuse herself or to get our teacher to turn away from the board. But she was just setting up the pretext for her escape: She left the room, as though in need of water.
I felt better as soon as sheâd gone. With the rest of the class, I repeated after Moreh Pinkus, but the Hebrew letters refused to enter my brain. I fell into a bored daze, which I interrupted only to check the wall clock and will its audible minute hand to tick faster.
I pretended to take notes, looking up at the board and down at my notebook, while I wrote out the words to Bob Dylanâs âHighway 61 Revisited.â I lingered over âGod said to Abraham kill me a son/Abe said, âMan, you must be puttinâ me on,â â which seemed pertinent.
It wasnât until I had to go to the bathroom that I realized how long Margie had been gone. Sheâll be back in a second, I