the question is legitimate, even if Margaret has been out of her mind between the attic and the photographs in Penelopeâs room.
âThe police came and took the report the day after she disappeared,â he insists after a moment, throwing his hands into the air. âWhat is it with you two and your suspicions? They didnât need to question either of you because there wasnât anything fishy about the situation. Clearly, she went for a walk and endured some sort of horrible accident. She may have been drunk, lost her way somehow...â
His voice wavers with emotion, causing his cheeks to instantly redden in embarrassment. I think about how he and Penelope used to look at each other, and feel a sick mix of sadness for my father and secondhand embarrassment from his quivering chin.
âClearly,â my cousin repeats, rolling her eyes. âWow, you sure do seem to know everything, Uncle Felix.â
âThatâs enough,â he says, his face still red. âThatâs about as much as I can handle for one day. If there is just one thing I could ask of you girls for the next two weeks, itâs that youâll stay out of my and Mirandaâs way while we learn how to continue with the party planning in Penelopeâs absence.â
Then heâs gone, his footsteps echoing and fading throughout the dining room and parlor as he makes his way to his study. Since my aunt disappeared, itâs been startling, almost pitiful, how intensely my father is distracting himself with the country club. Itâs like the parties are suddenly the most important thing in the entire world, even more important than getting to the root of why Margaret ruined the photographs. I stare at my cousin through wide eyes.
âWhat the hell is going on with you?â I ask once she makes it clear that she intends to remain silent. âWhy would you do that stuff to all of Penelopeâs photos? Sheâs your mother...â
âYou mean, she was,â Margaret says. âSheâs gone now.â
A lump forms in my throat. âIâm starting to worry about you,â I say. âYou never talk to me about anything anymore, youâre acting different, and earlier in the atticââ
âEarlier in the attic I was trying to scare you,â Margaret says dismissively. She stops chewing for a moment and reaches over for my fatherâs glass of unfinished wine. I think back to when Margaret told me she had something to show me in the attic. She was so serious about the knocking on the wall, desperate even. I donât know if I believe that she was only trying to scare me.
After Margaret chugs the wine, she sets the glass down and goes back to her roast beef. âThe truth is that Iâve been thinking a whole lot about my mom,â she says. âAnd itâs stuff Iâm pretty sure you wouldnât want to hear. Thatâs why Iâm not talking to you.â
âWhat do you mean, stuff I wouldnât want to hear?â
âWell,â Margaret says. âYou act as if she just vanished into thin air, instead of dying painfully, scared and alone.â
Her comment is like a slap to the face, especially after all of the torture my mind has been putting itself through over this very topic. âHow do you know she died painfully?â I ask, my voice nearly a whisper. Why would she say that?
Margaret does something startling then: she smiles , an unsettling and icy smirk that, for a brief moment, makes me feel as though I am looking into the face of madness. Suddenly my head feels light.
âLetâs just say I have my ways,â she says after the pause. She wipes her mouth with a napkin and stands, smoothing the back of her satin pajama pants before facing me. âIâm going to bed now. Maybe we can...hang out tomorrow or something.â
She hasnât suggested such a thing in days. I might be happy about the idea if it wasnât for