business!â
Thatâs when she knew. She wasnât sure exactly what she knew, but she knew. The only Aida Charlene had ever known was an old cousin of Loisâs whoâd been dead over thirty years. And while Lois was admittedly a frisky character, Charlene was unaccustomed to such anger and temper in her mother. Lois was going through some mental/medical crisis.
Trying to remain calm, she went to the trunk, pulled out two bags and handed one to Lois. She followed her mother up the walk to the front door. Lois got the door unlocked easily enough, and they went inside and put the groceries away without speaking. When the bags were folded and stowed on a pantry shelf, they stood and looked at each other across the butcher block.
âIâm very sorry,â Lois said. âIâm sorry you werebothered, sorry I was rude to you and sorry about whatâs happening.â
âWhat is happening?â Charlene asked.
âWell, isnât it perfectly clear? Iâm losing it.â
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Charlene went back to the office in something of a trance. Was it possible that even though she spent a great deal of time with Lois, sheâd been too preoccupied to notice these changes?
She threw herself into the accumulated work on her desk, plowing through briefs, returning calls, writing memos and dictating letters. She also spent some time on the Internet, researching dementia in the elderly and Alzheimerâs disease.
It was getting late and she should have gone home long ago, but she wanted no spare time between work and eveningâshe wouldnât know how to handle it. She could research Alzheimerâs, but she couldnât think about her mother suffering from it. Tonight was dinner at her place with Dennis. And until she could talk to him, until she could take advantage of his cool-headed appraisal of her problemânot to mention his medical expertiseâshe couldnât allow herself to focus on it. But when the intercom buzzed and she looked at her watch, she realized she wouldnât even make it to her house ahead of Dennis, much less have time to cook him dinner. âItâs Dennis,â Pam intoned from the outer office.
If he cancels, Charlene thought, I will kill him and hide the body. She picked up. âDennis, I lost all track of time. I can leave here in just aââ
âListen, if you have to work lateââ
âWhat? You arenât going to cancel, are you?â
âNo,â he said calmly. âI was just wondering if youâd like me to pick anything up.â
âOh.â The perfect man. The most stable and reliable thing in her life. With Lois falling apart and Stephanie making her crazy, maybe the only stable and reliable thing in her life. âDid I just bark at you?â she asked him.
âPretty much. Bad day?â
âWell, I would reply âthe worstâ except that I stopped by the hospital and I know you had a terrible day yourself, one that included fatalities. Soâ¦â
âYes, you were gone by the time I realized you had just made a rare unannounced appearance. I was so distracted at the time. So, what is this? Professional or personal?â he asked.
She thought about dodging the question, but then, after a pause, she slowly let it out. âPersonal.â It might as well have been a dirty word.
âI should have guessed. I can hear the tension in your voice, and youâre working till the last possible minute. I know what that means.â
She leaned back in her leather chair. âYou do? What does it mean?â
âThat youâre upset, and you donât want any time on your hands during which you might think too hard, because youâre afraid you might become distraught. You never have, but youâre still always afraid of that. Of losing control.â
Embarrassingly, unbelievably, she began to cry. Thetears had been there all day, just below the surface, but this