game, Stan walked through the crowds on the street, watched them bang their pots and blow their horns.
In the early summer, Stan received a letter with a Winnipeg postmark. This note was handwritten (sheâd left her typewriter behind). She apologized for the abruptness of her departure and for the way in which Stan had to discover her relationship with Jim. She was sorry he had lost his job and she hoped heâd be all right. She did not explain how it had all happened, the affair, the destruction of their marriage. She didnât have to. Since their wedding day, a hot day at City Hall, Stan had anticipated an ending much like this. He knew Louise was an ambitious woman, someone who longed to travel and see the world, someone who would not stay in one place for very long. He, on the other hand, would have been satisfied to spend the rest of his life as a timekeeper in Toronto, to see each year develop much the same as the last, with only the teamâs performance through the playoffs from year to year determining any difference. He often wondered what it was about him that convinced her to marry him in the first place.
He was, he knew, boring, and while he didnât mind being bored by himself, he couldnât imagine anyone else standing for it. If heâd been a stepping stone for her, he was a willing one. Temporary or not, Stan had loved his marriage and adored Louise. He couldnât bring himself to blame her for ending it. She had clearly given him more than heâd given her.
At the end of the letter, after wishing him well, Louise wrote that Stan could find his car at the corner of Main and Robert in Penetanguishene, Ontario. She was sorry to have taken it without asking, and sorry to not be able to return it, but she was certain it was safe and would remain where sheâd left it until he could manage a trip up there to fetch it.
It was a five-hour bus ride to Penetang. Stan sat in a window seat beside an older woman who was going to visit her son in prison. Manslaughter, she said, over and over again. Stan told her he was visiting relatives. The bus left the station at Bay and Dundas in early orange light, picked its way through empty city streets and found countryside to the northwest. They sped past the tiny airport at Malton, a field and a windsock, and found the northern highway, number 27. Here the landscape was hills and trees, one farm bleeding into the next, and towns with curious names, each of them a brief stopping point for the busâKleinburg, Nobleton, Schomberg, Bond Head. Further north, near Barrie, Stan saw a sign for a town called Utopia.
The bus stopped for half an hour in Barrie to off-load some passengers and pick up others. Stan took the opportunity to stretch his legs. He walked along Dunlop Street past an artillery gun cemented to the sidewalk as a war memorial. Apparently, Barrie had sent more than fifty men to their deaths in two wars. So many for such a small town. Late morning light bounced off Lake Simcoe and shimmered between the shop windows on the street. Stan walked down to the water and gazed north, up the bay to where it widened and disappeared in distance. It looked so different from the lake he knew back in Toronto, so empty and wild. He imagined that people had stood in this spot for thousands of years and seen pretty much the same view. Trees and water and sunshine.
An hour and a half later, he was walking the streets of Penetang, looking out over a different bay on a different lake. Heâd seen his car at the central intersection as the bus chugged past, and now he was trying to remember his way back to it. There wasnât much to the town, so he didnât worry about getting lost, but he had no other reason for being there, and an idea had begun to demand time in his mind. He wanted to get back to Barrie as quickly as possible.
The car was parked by the side of the road, across from a furniture store. There was no ticket on the windshield,