wasnât sure what he was going to do. âThanks for today,â he said softly as he gave my hand a squeeze.
âYouâre welcome,â I said, wanting to acknowledge it but afraid to, and his grip fell away. Professional. I was professional. Heâd been nothing but professional back to me ever since that kiss, his mouth tasting of wine and me breathless and wanting to know how long it took to get him undressed. I knew that he was going to marry Ellasbeth, that he had a standard to live up to that didnât include a local girl with a crazy mom and pop-star dad.
But he kept touching me. And I kept wanting him to.
Jenks was picking the bugs out of my car grille with his sword and shoving them off with his foot. Meeting my eyes, he made a get-on-with-it gesture, but Trent wasnât making any motion to leave and I didnât know what he wanted. âIâll talk to you later, then,â I said, rocking back a step.
âRight. Later.â Head down, Trent started to go, then turned back unexpectedly. âRachel, are you available tonight?â
I continued to back up, going toe-heel, toe-heel, not watching where I was going. There it was again. Professional, but not. My first response was to turn him down, but I could use the money and I had promised Quen Iâd look after him. Jenksâs dust flashed an irritated red at the delay, and I said, âSure. Business or casual business?â
âCasual,â Trent said, and I put my hands in my pockets. âTen okay? Iâll pick you up.â
He was going to want to nap around midnight, so whatever it was, itâd be over by then. Either that, or it was a meeting with someone on a night schedule that couldnât be tweaked.
âTen,â I said, confirming it. âWhere are we going?â
Trentâs head ducked, and spinning on a heel, he walked to his SUV. âBowling!â he shouted, not looking back.
âFine, donât tell me,â I muttered. It didnât matter. Iâd be wearing something black and professional no matter where we went. The kite show, a horse event, the park with Ellasbeth when she came to pick up or drop off the girls and Trent didnât want her on the grounds. Even an overnight trip out of state for business. I liked doing stuff with Trent, but I always felt like a cog out of place. As I shouldâI was his security, not his girlfriend.
âOh, for sweet ever loving Tink!â Jenks complained when I got to my car. âAre you done yet? Iâve got stuff to do this afternoon.â
âWeâre done,â I said softly as I slipped in behind the wheel of my little red MINI Cooper. Trent was backing up, and I waited as he leaned across a stiff-looking Jonathan and shouted out the open window âLet me know what Al says!â before putting it in drive and heading for the interstate. If Quen had been here, he wouldâve insisted on driving, but Jonathan could be swayed and I knew Trent liked his independenceânot that he had that much.
âAl, huh?â Jenks said, suddenly interested as I sat behind the wheel and watched Trent leave. âYou think thatâs a good idea?â Jenks asked, now hovering inches before my nose.
I leaned forward to start my car. âHe can tell me if there was a charm on it,â I said, and Jenks landed on the rearview mirror, distrust and unease falling from him in an orangey dust. I was tired, annoyed, and I didnât like the unsettled, more-than-being-said feeling I was getting from Trent. âIt shouldnât have exploded,â I added, and Jenksâs wings slowly fanned in agreement.
If someone was targeting Trent, I wanted to know. It was worth bothering Al over, though heâd just tell me to let the man die.
That ball shouldnât have exploded.
Two
T he sun was a slow flash through Cincinnatiâs buildings as I fought afternoon traffic headed for the bridge and the Hollows beyond.