from that horrid auction. I couldnât leave her there.â
âAnd then there was that cat and âer kittens you brought inâfleas anâ all. Without knowing how Lady Beatrice would react. You coulda got us all kicked out.â
âThe building was going to be demolished, they would have been killed. And we got rid of the flââ
âAnd we both know what you do wiv penniesââ
âThatâs diffââ
âFace it, youâre as softhearted as they come, Janey girl. And knowinâ you, youâll find the most impossible, unsuitable bloke in the
ton
and fall for âim like a ton oâ bricks.â
âI wonât. I absolutely will not do anything so foolish!â She felt oddly panicky at the thought.
âPooh, you wonât have no choice in it, just like Abby and Damaris didnât. And if anyoneâs made for love, you are. You can say what you like, Janey, loveâll find you anyway. Now go to sleep. We got a lot of work to get through in the morning. Your turn to blow out the candle.â
Jane slipped out of bed and blew it out. She climbed back into bed.
Youâll find the most impossible, unsuitable bloke in the
ton
and fall for âim like a ton oâ bricks.
She wouldnât. She absolutely wouldnât.
*Â Â Â *Â Â Â *
âJ ane! Jane, wake up!â A hand was shaking her shoulder, hard.
âWhaââ Jane sat up abruptly, staring around her wildly. Her heart was pounding.
âYou was dreaminâ again.â Daisy was sitting on Janeâs bed. ââNother nightmare.â
Jane blinked, and her dazed thoughts slowly came into focus. She glanced at the window. The curtains stirred slightly, letting in a few slivers of gray predawn light.
âYou all right now?â Daisy asked.
Jane nodded. âThanks, Daisy.â It was the same dream as always.
Daisy didnât move. âYou been dreaminâ a lot lately. Cryinâ and callinâ out.â
âSorry. I donât mean to wake you.â She hesitated, then, âWhat do I say?â
âCanât make out the words, just a lot of muttering, thrashing around and yellingâbut that ainât the point. I keep tellinâ you, itâs the night air. Everybody knows night air is bad for you, but you will insist on sleepinâ with the window open.â
âI donât like it shut,â Jane said.
Daisy slipped off the bed and stumped over to the window. âYeah, well, too bad, because Iâm shuttinâ it now. Itâs bloody freezinâ outside and we got at least another hour before it gets lightenough to start sewing, so Iâm gunna get some sleep.â She pulled back the curtains and sniffed appreciatively. âMmm, must be an east wind. Smell that? You can always smell the bread from the bakery when thereâs an east wind. Best smell in the world, that is.â
Jane repressed a shudder.
âMmm, lovely it is. Makes me hungry.â Daisy took another deep sniff, then closed the window and pulled the curtains closed. âFunny that,â she said as she climbed back into her bed.
âWhat is?â
âYou often seem to have bad dreams when thereâs an east wind. Night.â She laughed. âOr whatever you say when youâre goinâ back to sleep in the morninâ.â
âNight. And thanks, Daisy.â Jane snuggled back down in the warm bedclothes. She wouldnât get any more sleep, she knew. She never did after sheâd had the dream.
Daisy never asked what Janeâs nightmares were about. She took it for granted that everyone had terrible memories from before. âItâs normal, innit?â sheâd said once. âBut weâre the survivors, and bad dreams is what we pay for beinâ survivors.â It was a comforting philosophy. Dreams were frightening while you were having them, but they couldnât hurt
Stephanie Pitcher Fishman