four-thirty. I told him not to worry about the noise.
âIâd like to hire you,â the kid said, his words blurred through towel and ice. âTo investigate. Like on the card. You do that, right?â
I sank into one of my mismatched kitchen chairs, the one with the split vinyl seat, and made a reassuring noise to contrast with my appearance. My bathrobe is not recommended interviewing-a-prospective-client-wear; it looks like a bright red chenille bedspread, stitched together on the sides. I love red, but I donât usually wear it in public because it clashes with my hair.
Under the robe I was wearing a white singlet T-shirt, which is my favorite nightwear because itâs soft and doesnât scratch. I got in the habit of wearing my husbandâs T-shirts to bed when I was married. No matter what alluring nightie I started out in, by the middle of the night Iâd give up and go back to the old reliables. Lace itches. When we split up he left me a drawerful. I threw them out and bought replacements. It didnât seem right to get rid of Cal and keep his shirts.
I adjusted the robe over my crossed knees. Usually when Iâm interviewing a client, I dress okay, nothing fancy, but okay. There I sat, 5:22 A.M., in my beat-up bathrobe, feeling like the âbeforeâ illustration in a âDress for Successâ manual.
On the other hand, the kidâs appearance made his plea for help seem urgent. His jeans were muddy, his shirt torn. He said âexcuse meâ before he headed to the tiny half-bath to tend his lip in privacy. When he returned his face was pale but his hair was neatly combed. Heâd probably been careful not to bleed in the sink.
It didnât seem right to tell him to come back at nine just so I could dress up.
âLook,â he said, âI need to find this girl, Valerie Haslam.â That much came out clear and strong. Then his voice started to falter, and he sat down and addressed the tabletop. âSheâs, sheâs this girl I know. We go to the same school. Sheâs, like, lived across the street from me forever ⦠and weâre, like, friends, you know.â
âMaybe you should tell me your name,â I said, handing him a flesh ice cube.
âShit, I mean, excuse me, I forgot. Iâm Jeremy, Jerry, I mean, Jeremyâs a dumb name. My friends call me Jerry. Jerry Toland.â He stuck out the hand that had been holding the ice pack. I almost screamed when I shook it, it was so cold.
âValerie isnât, like, the kind of girl who runs away, I mean who just takes off and doesnât say anything. I mean, sheâd have said good-bye or something. But everybody says she hasnât been gone long, and maybe she just left on her own, and girls that age are more mature, and maybe she went to New York for the week. I mean, they donât seem all that interested, you know, like sheâs one more missing piece of luggage. Her momâs not home, and the guidance counselor says itâs none of my business. I guess I could have gone to the Lincoln Police, but sheâs not in Lincoln anymore, and I canât see those guys doing anything real, you know, about getting her back.â
âHow old are you, Jerry?â I said.
He bristled. âWhatâs that got to do with it?â
âHow old?â
âLook, do me a favor. Donât tell me how it will be all better when Iâm older and that shit. I mean you canât be that much older than I am, so donât bother telling me that shit.â
Every time the kid swore, he looked at me to see if I was going to faint. When he said shit it came out like it had quotation marks around it. Maybe heâd decided to swear as proof of his advanced age. He should hear the ten-year-olds at Paolinaâs housing project.
âItâs about contracts, Jerry,â I said. âI do what I do for a living, to pay my bills.â
âWell, donât