boy? Youâll get mown down by machine guns and grenades.â
âIâm just telling you, sergeant. Heâs my brother. He cracked his head and heâs unconscious. I must stay with him. Never mind about me, sir. Go back without me. Iâll carry him back when itâs safe. Sir.â
The hand at his throat tightened. âI donât care if heâs the Queen of bloody Sheba, youâll do as I command without question, you half-wit . Get up. Youâre coming with me.â
âHeâs my BROTHER!â Giles pushed the man off him with a forceful shove, sending him sprawling in the mud, then turned back to Freddy, who lay face-down with his eyes still shut. âItâs all right; I wonât leave you, Freddy. Wake up, youâre going to be all right. I promise.â
The sergeant staggered to his feet and growled, âItâll be far better for you to get gassed than face the music for striking an officer.â He swore again and disappeared into the fog.
Frantically trying to wake Freddy, while struggling to pull on both their gasmasks, Giles was already choking from the burning in his throat and churning fear in the pit of his stomach. He lay beside Freddy in cold silence as yellow sulphurous smoke rolled towards them. After what seemed an eternity, he raised his head to peer into the night ⦠when a blinding flash burst just in front of him and tore away his mask. He fell back screaming, as if white-hot splinters were burning into his eyes. âI canât see. Freddy, I canât see!â
They held each other in the darkness as the choking stench slowly seeped away and the deadly cloud drifted over. They continued clinging to one another through the night, gasping, groaning, whispering and praying in their sodden, stinking hell.
At long last, as the sky began to lighten in the east, a silver mist hung above their headsin the deathly stillness. Freddy stirred. âI think I heard a skylark. Over there. The larks are in the fields behind our trenches. Itâs the way back.â
Numb with cold, they slowly wriggled free from the wire and stagnant mud sucking them down, to emerge from their boggy crater. Giles could only murmur deliriously as they propped each other up and limped back through the reeking quagmire. Freddy steadily steered him past gruesome shapes in the mud â the twisted limbs of corpses. Giles saw nothing. He could no longer see anything ⦠and never would again.
T HE W AIT
They sat in the medical tent, wrapped in blankets and sipping strong, sweet tea. Freddy’s torn arm was put in a sling and he was led back to camp with a curt, ‘Nothing much wrong with you, Ovel.’
A medical officer wound a bandage around Giles’s head, completely covering his eyes. ‘You’ll have to keep this on for a week. If youreyes are affected by exposure to mustard gas, your sight should return soon. If you need further treatment, I don’t think there’s much point bothering under the circumstances. I’ve been instructed to read you this letter then escort you to the cells.’ He took a document from an envelope and slowly read aloud:
‘Private 2634 Giles George Hoadley, the charge against you is that on the 19th October 1917, you did wilfully disobey orders from a superior officer and strike him, with the express intention of deserting your duty and subjecting both officer and fellow soldiers to increased danger. Such a wanton display of insubordination and cowardice carries the maximum penalty. The evidence will be examined and the sentence announced within twenty-eight days – delivered to your prison cell.’
For the endless days that followed, Giles was kept in total isolation in a small room with only a straw mattress and a bucket. Whether the cell had a window, he had no idea for he could see nothing. Apart from calling to the guard outside the door, he had no way of knowing the time of day or night. Then, without warning, he was led