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this perception of imminent danger?
    Has Walter perhaps mentioned Lionel Richardson’s name before? Is there some association buried in her subconscious that causes the synapses of her brain to crackle with electricity, to issue these messages of alarm down her neural pathways to the muscles of her heart and lungs? Or maybe it’s just that she can’t see him, can’t inspect his face and clothes and person and confirm that he’s speaking the truth, that he’s only a man, a visiting former student of her husband’s, benignly curious.
    Violet takes her eyes from the screen for an instant to check herwatch. Nearly five minutes have passed. At five minutes she will draw a line under her counting marks and start again.
    â€œCan I help you? Keep time for you?” asks the invader.
    â€œIt’s not necessary.” She looks at her watch. Five minutes. She draws a line.
    â€œAren’t you missing your count, looking back and forth like that?”
    â€œA few, of course.”
    â€œDr. Grant always had me take a partner to keep time. We switched off to rest our eyes.” He offers this information respectfully, without a trace of the usual scientific arrogance.
    â€œWe don’t have the staff for that here in Berlin.”
    â€œYou have it now.”
    Without taking her eye from the eyepiece, Violet grasps the watch in her left hand and holds it out. “Very well. If you insist.”
    He gathers the watch in a light brush of his fingers against her palm. “Five-minute intervals?”
    â€œYes.” Violet shuts her eyes.
    â€œAll right. Ready . . .”
    A tranquil leather-scented silence warms the air. Violet breathes it deeply inside her, once, twice.
    â€œGo.”
    Violet opens her eyes to the glorious flashing blackness, the stars exploding in her own minute universe. Her pencil moves on the paper, counting, counting. Lionel Richardson sits just behind her, unmoving, close enough that she can feel the heat radiating from his body. He holds her watch in his steady palm. Her gold pocket watch, unadorned, almost masculine; the watch her sister Christina gave her four years ago on a smoke-drenched pier on the Hudson River, as the massive transatlantic liner
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strained against her moorings a few feet away. Her watch: Violet’s only parting gift from the disapproving Schuylers.
    â€œTime,” says Lionel Richardson.
    Violet draws a line to begin a new count.
    â€œAnd . . . go.”
    He issues the direction with low-pitched assurance, from his invisible post at her left shoulder. He hasn’t simply swallowed the blackness, he’s become the dark space itself. Even his scent has absorbed into the air. Violet makes her tireless marks on the notepad. She sinks into the world of electric green-white scintillations, the regular strikes of radioactive particles against atomic nuclei, and somewhere in the rhythmic beauty, her heart returns at last to its usual serene pace, her nerves smooth down their ragged edges. Only the pencil, hard and sharp between her thumb and forefinger, links her to the ordinary world.
    â€œTime,” says Richardson, and then: “Would you like me to count this round? Your eyes must be aching.”
    Her eyes are aching. Her shoulders ache, too, and the small of her back. She straightens herself. “Yes, thank you.”
    Lionel’s chair scrapes lightly. His body slides upward in the darkness behind her. A pressure cups her right elbow: his hand, guiding her around her own chair and into his. He places the watch in her palm and settles into the seat before the eyepiece, hunching himself around the apparatus without complaint, for he’s much larger than she is.
    She lifts the watch and stares at the face. “Ready?”
    â€œA moment.” He adjusts himself, settles his eye back against the lint lining. His profile, lit by the dim bulb next to the notepad, reveals itself at last: firm