âI hate the fact that Josie even watches them. They edit peopleâs conversations and rearrange everything to appear more dramatic. Not to mention this insane release they expect me to sign.â She points to a paragraph that she apparently finds particularly disgusting. âIf anything goes wrong, thereâll be no legal recourse!â
âOkay, Mom? Take a breath,â I say. âYouâre a great lawyer and can probably negotiate some stuff in there.â I slide the contract out of her hand since its presence is not helping. âI want you to think about what a great opportunity this can be. The prize money can help us out with bills, and you can stop working so hard.â I look at her meaningfully as I add, âWeâll be able to spend more time together as a family.â
Iâm aiming for her weak spot, and let me tell you, Momâs guilt over working as much as she does is so soft and gooey, itâs like a giant toasted marshmallow with a bullâs-eye painted on it.
âThey may even give me a new car!â I say, which is overshooting because, apparently, Mom does not feel at all guilty that Iâm stuck driving Aunt Kateâs old Coroda.
She shakes her head no.
âShe should get this chance, Mom,â Josie speaks up from where sheâs been hovering close by. âThey will be fixing her socially. Do you have any idea how much help Shannon needs?â
Mom raises her eyebrows. It isnât very often that Josie and I double-team her, which is why it can be so effective when we do. Mom shakes her head in disbelief, which is a good sign she realizes weâre determined to wear her down.
âIf becoming popular is something you care about, why donât you just work on your people skills?â Mom says. âJosie, you can help herâ without involving nationwide viewers. Have you even thought about how embarrassing this could end up being?â
I am, of course, familiar with the concept of manufactured drama among the contestants-slash-participants-slash-stars of reality shows. But really, who wants to watch real reality? I may as well sit at our bay window watching the little old couple across the street argue with each other. We call them the Bickersons, and let me tell you, they can get into it over anything. Whether or not the right front tire of their car is low on airâ itâs not . Whether or not itâs going to rainâ it did . Whether or not Mrs. Bickerson needs to âshut the hell up alreadyââ she does . Sorry, tangent . I did warn you.
As Iâve been daydreaming, Josie has been trying to work Mom over, and I tune in just as she blurts out, âDid you know Shannonâs been getting bullied at school for over a year now?â
Mom swings on me with her nostrils flared. âWhat?â
âThanks a bunch, Jos,â I say, and she mouths sorry and heads to her bedroom. Mom asks me if itâs true.
âIâve been getting lightly bullied off and on. Mostly on. But doing the show would put an end to that.â
Mom grabs the bridge of her nose. âPlease tell me youâre not getting called a slut.â She takes a deep breath.
âNot exactly. Itâs just one mean girl that I can totally handle. Donât worry.â Mom presses me for details, and seeing how upset she is makes the pain fresh and raw all over again. âIâm sorry, Mom.â I canât stop the tears in my eyes. âI didnât want you to know.â
We sit in silence while I get my emotions under control by fantasizing what it would be like to walk down the hallways at school with my head held high.
âSo, voted into the bottom three, huh?â Mom finally says.
âIâd like my senior year to be different,â I tell her. âThis show can help.â
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Mom finally agrees to meet with Mickey and Victoria, which is how she, Josie, and I end up huddled together on our