virgin flesh for the first deep stab of him. Biting his chest as he seared inside her, Alisa was unable to stifle the sob that welled in her throat, torn between want and agony as he swelled deeper within her tight, intimate space.
âNoâ¦â The reluctant word was a sob, a muffled scream as her thighs straightened in a regretful reflex as she tried to accommodate him.
âIâve hurt you?â His withdrawal was as rapid as his embrace, his shocked features taking in her tears as he scooped her against him. âI thought you wantedââ
âI didâ¦â she murmured. âI doâ¦â She was crying now, scared and sore but still shamefully wanting, âIâve never done this beforeâ¦â Wincing against him, Alisa could almost hear his mind asking impossible questions. âI didnât tell you the truth. Marietta isnât my daughter.â She sobbed trying to cover herself, grabbing a sheet, terrified at what she must now admit to this very powerful man. âSheâs my sister.â
âYour sister?â He stared down at her, confusion lacing every feature. âWhy?â He shook his head. âWhy would you lie to me? Why say she is yours?â
âBecause they would take her away!â Her tear-streaked face turned to his, her eyes pleading for his understanding.
âBut you and your husband can surelyââ
âThere is no husband! I raise her alone.â
âWhen?â As if she were on fire, he dropped her, emphasizing the very question Alisa had often asked herself. âWhen do you raise her?â
âI have to work.â Alisa gasped. âI have to pay for her medicines. Benito, she is unwell, she needs medicineââ
âIs it any wonder?â The harshness of his voice was like a slap. His dark eyes looked at her with utter distaste. âYou are never there for her. And on your one day off you are out sailing and screwingââ
Grabbing at her clothes, appalled at his reaction, she ran from the boat, but there was no hiding from the truth. His terrifying words taunted her over and over as she raced along the pier until, breathless and dizzy, she arrived at Sunday school to collect her sister.
âMaybe she would be better off without you.â
Chapter Six
âHeâs right.â Alisa shivered in misery. Once again Mariettaâs sobs and coughing still had not abated despite the lateness of the hour. âI am not here for her enough.â
âYou love her, though,â Bella pointed out. âAs soon as you have your qualifications, you will be there for her each morning, at home in the eveningsââ
âDreams!â This time it was Alisa who gave a weary shrug. âHow can I study when I have no work to pay our bills?â
âYou donât know that yet, not until you go back to the villaâ¦â Bella attempted to be optimistic, but it was hopeless, they both knew that. Alisa had seen the anguish on the old ladyâs lined face when, sobbing, Alisa had told her the story.
âHold your head high when they fire you, Alisa. He had no right to say those things to you. How could a man of his status possibly know how hard it is?â
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He didnât want to know.
Benito didnât want to think about her life because then he might have to examine his own.
Didnât want to ask himself why it was easier to sleep with an unfaithful wife than a virgin aunt.
Pacing the floor of the villa, a thousand times he halted by the phone, even picked it up a few times to arrange her dismissal as he had done to others so many times in the past, for a spilled glass of wine on his expensive suit, for the fire not being lit when heâd arrived home unannounced. The knot of self-loathing didnât loosen as he downed a whisky in one gulp as, over and over, he tried to convince himself he was right.
He worked hard!
So had they.
He deserved
Janwillem van de Wetering