burdens and unfulfilled dreams. When her job was done, Pepsi tiptoed behind Mama out of the room to languish on the verandah on the white rattan chairs. She languished there while the sunâs rays crept lazily across the tiles, and while Barrington, who had suddenly developed a habit of being very attentive to Mama, stood at the French windows with his hands in his pockets, watching.
Boyd lingered at the end of the verandah in the long grass, hoping to catch Pepsiâs words, to glimpse her slender legs which ended in brown open-top shoes with loosely buckled straps, and sniff the adult scent of the Pondâs Cold Cream that she wore. Her coming and her presence had already created dramas of epic proportions in his head. And in those dramas she fought with Estella and Lydia Parsons for his special attention.
âPepsi!â a voice hollered from beyond the green hedge. âMrs Moore want you!â It was Icilyn, Mrs Mooreâs maid. âPepsi, where are you? Come now, you hear? Pepsi!â
Poppy rushed to the side of the house, barking hard, fazed by this reckless, disrespectful shouting in the quiet of mid-morning when the only sounds were radio sounds, the sublime voices and music of
Housewivesâ Choice.
âPepsiiii! Pepsiiii!â The voice seemed desperate.
Poppy was barking himself to death.
âPepsiii! Mrs Moore want you. Come now. Pepsi! You hear me, chile?â
Pepsi took the steps down to the garden two at a time. Sunlight splashed her hair. Boyd, Barrington and Yvonne watched the thin-legged figure till it vanished in a dazzle of colour at the garden fence. What manner of girl was this?
The next day, in the long grass at the far end of the garden, hidden from the house, Pepsi came suddenly upon Boyd and Poppy. She found them gazing into air.
âDo you know what place this is?â Pepsi asked brusquely.
Boyd hesitated. They were a long way from the house, alone in the grass with Pepsi.
âThis is where the slaves were beaten by the slave owners in slavery days,â Pepsi related. âYou live on a sugar estate and donât know that? They donât teach you these things at school because Jamaica is a colony and they want to keep you down, but my cousin whoâs at university told me. The women slaves were lashed with cat-oâ-nine tails. Their clothes were ripped off.â Pepsi looked about. âHave you ever seen a naked woman?â
Again Boyd hesitated, trying to make sense of the question.
âNot your mother. Everybodyâs seen their mother naked.â
Boyd didnât know what to say. He had his secrets and his reserve.
âHave you ever seen a naked woman who wasnât your mother?â
âYes,â Boyd said. Poppyâs tail waltzed slowly as if hypnotised.
âWho?â
He didnât want to say.
âBoyd, I said who? Who was it?â
Boyd was silent.
âItâs your maid,â Pepsi told him.
Boyd nodded, with relief. He didnât want to talk about the fleshy, pink women in the encyclopaedia. He didnât know how to tell about them.
Pepsi laughed. âHa, ha. Boy. Spying on your maid. Disgusting. That is what you country boys do, spy on people. You were, werenât you?â
Boyd didnât answer.
âI said you were spying on her. Was it when she was undressing in her room? Tell me. I know what you people get up to.â
Boyd couldnât think, the air full of the womenâs lotion and earth smells.
âDid you spy on her when she was in the shower?â
Boyd nodded. She already knew. He had watched Perlita in the shower from a crack in the adjoining cubicle as she shrieked and gasped under the gushing water. It was her joyful shrieking and the rush of the water that had called him to her. He remembered the three tufts of black hair, her bouncing titties concentrating his eyes, the fleshy form that was woman, and he could not, did not want to stop looking. Later in the