dark would hide the blush on my face. It wasnât dark enough that it hid the disappointment on CJâs.
In my apartment, CJ moved carefully through the living room so he didnât hit his head on the side of the ceiling that slanted down. CJâs light brown hair was a bit longer than when he had been on active duty in the military. I set the wine on the counter and pulled out a plate so CJ could eat. We settled at my small kitchen table, another barrier Iâd used to good purpose on more than one occasion. CJ unpacked the food and took a bite of a meatball before it even hit the plate I slid in front of him.
âTheir meatballs are the best,â he said, wiping a bit of tomato sauce from the corner of his mouth. He stabbed a fork into a piece of Italian sausage. âAnd their sausage is blissful. You donât usually get sausage.â
âThis is food that was left over at the end of the day.â
âI rarely get their food.â
âI thought all was forgiven.â
The DiNapolis had taken my side nine months ago, during the separation and divorce, when we all thought CJ had slept with a young woman. CJ, who befriended everyone, had been hurt by that.
âSo did I, until I went in a few months ago. I donât think anyone actually spit in my food, but the glare and the chill made me realize Iâm still persona not grata in there. Why is that?â
I shrugged, but I knew. I grew up in Pacific Grove, California, right next to Monterey. My family still lived there and were mystified that I stayed out here in the snow and ice. Ellington felt like home to me, and the DiNapolis were like my family. They not only filled my tummy but also my soul by listening to my woes. âThey think youâre pressuring me.â
I stood and grabbed the bottle of wine off the counter. The cork slid out easily. I busied myself pouring two glasses of wine, hoping CJ would drop the subject, regretting weâd gotten to it in the first place. I sat back down and passed him one of the glasses.
âWe have a closed-container law in Ellington,â CJ said. Trust him to notice Iâd walked across the common with the open bottle under my arm.
âArrest me, then.â
âI wouldnât mind cuffing you.â CJ grinned.
Another blush coursed up my face.
âDiNapoliâs doesnât have a liquor license,â CJ said.
âCooking wine.â
âWhat are you planning on cooking?â CJ asked with a half smile that always melted me.
âBeef Wellington?â I had no idea if it needed wine or not. A talent for cooking eluded me. But the last thing I wanted to do was get the DiNapolis in trouble, and I wanted to forestall whatever it was that CJ had showed up to talk about. I didnât think it could be anything good after the day he and the police department must have had. âI ran in to Bubbles today. He was coming out of Stellaâs apartment as I left for the yard sale.â Darn, I didnât mean to venture into that topic, either. âDid you know?â
âThat he was seeing Stella? No.â
I gave CJ a look, letting him know that wasnât what I meant.
âI did know he was here. Heâs been here for about six months.â
âWhatâs he doing here? I thought he was wing commander for one of the missile bases out west.â
âHe got caught up in the whole scandal with the missileers cheating on their tests, sleeping on the job, and not securing the vault.â
Missile launch officers were tested constantly to make sure that, if the time came, they could turn the key without thinking about it. I didnât know how the tests were administered or what kinds of questions were asked, because all of that was classified. I did know the pressure to score 100 percent on every test was intense. If they missed one question on either of two monthly exams they werenât eligible to advance for a year. Not good for a