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something else entirely. This makes the relationship real. She’s getting over James, I’m getting over Diane, and we have mutual feelings for each other. This isn’t something I can take lightly. This is something I have to treat with respect. That’s what Alicia deserves.  
    She deserves to know the truth.

    There were a few houses in the area and a lot of daylight left. We decided to explore them, and see if we could find more supplies. Over the course of the day we found clothes, another bottle of shampoo, some soap, toothpaste, and a whole mess of food: canned soup, crackers, and various things that were either completely unspoiled or edible, but only if you were really hungry.
    There were a few walkers milling about, in or around the houses but we saw them early and easily avoided them. This was a small miracle, as distracted as I was. I couldn’t stop thinking about what I had to tell Alicia, what I was going to say to her tonight. By the time we returned to the apartment across the street from the grocery store, darkness had already come.
    The thing that kept running through my head all day—the thing I had to tell Alicia—was how James really died.  

    The day James died, it had just been the three of us—James, Alicia, and I—for weeks. I missed Diane so much. My grief over losing her was still fresh in my mind. I like to think I wasn’t myself. I just wanted things to go back to the way they were before, and knowing that that would never be possible made me more angry than I’d ever been in my life.
    They say people are capable of doing things when they’re grieving that they would never consider otherwise.  
    Seeing Diane die right in front of me scarred me. Watching those things tear into her, unable to do anything about it. Seeing the terror in her eyes as she screamed for help, only to see her life fade away moments later. There are things that we’re now forced to deal with on a daily basis that I don’t think we should have ever had to deal with.  
    I loved Diane. Alicia loved James. I didn’t want to see her go through that much pain. I didn’t want to kill James.
    But I thought about it.
    He and I were alone that day, all day. I knew that if he were to die, maybe I wouldn’t get Diane back, but at the very least, I wouldn’t have to see the two of them together anymore. I wouldn’t have to see, in them, exactly what I wanted for myself.  
    I had opportunities. My knife in hand, his back to me. I wouldn’t have even had to see his face. In the end, I couldn’t do it. It was too much, I could never go that far. I couldn’t kill him myself.
    Luckily, it was a dangerous world we were living in.
    The day was nearly over. We were talking, deciding whether or not to search one last house for medicine before starting our journey back.  
    I saw them coming.  
    He didn’t.  
    There was a moment, just after he saw them—too late!—that he looked at me, screaming for help. In that moment I could have stepped in and helped him fight them off. Instead, I stepped back. Everything I’d been thinking about that day affected that split-second decision.  
    Immediately, I realized what I’d done, and I suddenly wanted to help him but by then it was too late, there were too many of them.  
    James was dead.
    It was only a second—a brief moment where the pain of seeing them together had reached a crescendo within me and made me do that awful thing.  
    People were dying every second of every day. Most everyone I’d ever known was probably dead. What’s one more? I thought. What’s one more if it means I’ll be happier?  
    What’s one more if she never has to know what I’ve done?  
    But now Alicia loves me, and I can’t keep this from her any longer.  
    Maybe we were meant to be together. Maybe Diane and James were meant to die. Maybe that was necessary to bring Alicia and me together to ensure our survival.

    Standing in the apartment, moonlight filling the room from the open