floorboard settlingâsends my heart pounding against my chest and a thin sheen of sweat to break out on my forehead. I creep into the hall and listen, holding my breath, trying to hear past the rush of panic flooding through me. But all is silent. After a few minutes I return to the computer, staring at the screen, urging it to go faster.
But then my eyes fall on Bruceâs notebook again, filled with passwords that would allow me to look into every corner of Roryâs life. His calendars. His email. The Doc. If I had access to that, Iâd be able to keep an eye on them. To know what theyâre saying about my disappearance, to know if theyâre looking for me, and where. Iâd be able to stay one step ahead of them.
With another glance at the empty hallway, I flip through the notebook, back several pages, until I find Roryâs email password, and grab a yellow Post-it Note off Bruceâs desk, copying it just as the computer finishes with the files. The clock in the downstairs entry chimes two, and I pull the thumb drive from the port and slide his computer back into its hiding place. I close the drawer with a small click and replace the red book on the shelf, return Bruceâs notebook to its hiding place, and check the room for any signs that Iâve been there.
When Iâm satisfied, I make my way back to my office. Thereâs only one thing left to do.
I slide onto my chair, the leather cold against the backs of my legs, and open my laptop, my Detroit speech still on the screen. I close the window, knowing my icon will disappear from the top of everyone elseâs version, and log out of my email. When Iâm back to the Gmail homepage, I sit for a minute, letting the silence of the house and the faint ticking of the hall clock wash over me. I take a deep breath and let it out, and then another, trying to steady my nerves. Trying to think through every contingency, every little thing that might go wrong. I glance at the clock again, reminding myself that at two in the morning, no one will be awake. Not Bruce. Not Danielle. Definitely not Rory. For the millionth time, I wish for a smaller house. One where the walls werenât so solid. Where the carpets didnât absorb peopleâs footsteps so well, where I could reassure myself with the sound of Roryâs soft snoring. But heâs two floors above me, and I need to get this done.
I enter his email address and squint at the Post-it, carefully entering the password. Then I press return. Immediately, Roryâs phone buzzes on the desk next to me, an alert lighting up the screen. Your account has been accessed by a new device. I swipe left to clear it, then turn to my computer, Roryâs inbox in front of me. At the top of a long string of unread messages is the alert. I delete it, quickly toggling over to his trash, and delete it from there too.
My eyes scan his homepage, looking at the various folders, before clicking over to the Doc. Theyâve labeled it Meeting Notes . I open it, holding my breath, wondering what I might find, but itâs empty. Waiting for tomorrow. I imagine myself holed up late at night somewhere in Canada, a silent observer as Rory and Bruce deconstruct my disappearance, trying to figure out what happened. But more than that, Iâll be privy to everything Rory and Bruce say to each other, every conversation they think is private.
At the top, it reads Last edit made by Bruce Corcoran five hours ago . I click on it, wondering what the edit history might show, and a long list pops up on the right-hand side of the screen. 3:53 Rory Cook added a comment . 3:55 Bruce Corcoran added a comment . But no specifics. My eyes travel down the long list to the bottom of the window, where a box that says Show Changes is unchecked. I hover my cursor over it, tempted, but I leave it unchecked. Iâm logged in, and thatâs all that matters.
I click over to my computer settings, where I change my