the hiss of steam. Then silence.
* * *
My eyes linger now on the image of Violet, caught mid-laugh, my mother just a blurred figure in the background, and I ache to take it off the wall, to slip it between the layers of clothes in my suitcase and bring it with me, like a talisman. But I canât. And it nearly destroys my resolve to have to leave it behind.
I tear my gaze from my sisterâs smiling face, forever frozen at age eight, with only a few more years ahead of her, and make my way to Roryâs spacious office. Lined with wood paneling topped with bookshelves, his enormous desk dominates the room. His computer sits on top of it, dark and silent, and I walk past it to a section of the bookshelves behind. I pull the red book from its spot and set it down, reaching my hand into the empty space, feeling around for the small button hidden there and pressing it. The paneling that lines the wall below the shelves pops open with a tiny click.
Danielle isnât the only one whoâs been taking notes.
I pull it open and slip Roryâs second laptop from its hiding place. Rory doesnât keep hard copies of anything. Not receipts. Not personal notes. Not even photographs. Hard copies are too easy to lose track of. Too hard to control , heâd once explained to me. This machine is where everything hides. I donât know exactly whatâs on it, but I donât need to. No one keeps a secret laptop unless heâs hiding something big. Perhaps there are financial records that outline undoctored foundation accounts or money heâs siphoned off and redirected offshore. If I can get a copy of the hard drive, Iâll be able to leverage it if Rory ever gets too close.
Because despite what Iâve directed him to do in my letter, I have no doubt Rory will go to great lengths to find me. Petra and I discussed the possibility of faking my death. An accident where the body couldnât be recovered. But Nico had warned us off that plan. âIt would be all over the national news, which would make your job harder. Better to make it look like youâve left him. Youâll get a little bit of attention in the tabloids, but itâll fade fast.â
As expected, when I open the laptop, Iâm asked for a password. And while Rory has all of mine, I donât know any of his. What I do know, however, is that Rory cannot be troubled by details such as maintaining passwords. Thatâs a job for Bruce, who keeps them in a small notebook in his desk.
Iâve been watching Bruce for weeks now, my eyes tracking the green notebook as heâd riffle through it, punching in passwords whenever Rory needed them. I arranged flowers on the table just outside Roryâs office or searched through my purse in the doorway, tracking where Bruce kept the notebook during the workday and where it went at night.
I cross the room to Bruceâs desk and run my hand along the far side, engaging the lever that releases a small drawer, the notebook nestled inside. I flip through it quickly, past account numbers and passwords to various servicesâNetflix, HBO, Amazonâmy fingers shaking, knowing every minute, every second counts.
Finally, I find what Iâm looking for near the back. MacBook. I type the series of numbers and letters into the computer, and Iâm in. The time at the top of the screen reads one thirty as I slip the thumb drive into the USB port and start dragging files onto it, the icon showing a number in the thousands, slowly counting down. I glance at the door again, imagining all my plans coming to a halt in Roryâs office, copying his secret hard drive in my pajamas, and try not to picture what he would do if he caught me. The rage Iâd see in his eyes, the four quick strides heâd take until he could grab me, shoving me or dragging me out of his office, up the stairs to the privacy of our bedroom. I swallow hard.
A creak from somewhere above meâa footstep or
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