walked back to the beach and dove into the surf. He swam past the breakers, rolled over and floated on his back. Gannets dive-bombed the water around him; pelicans swooped along the rollers, dragging their feet only inches above the water. Burt felt a curious mixture of dread and euphoria; such peace was too delicious to last.
He left the water, showered, shaved, walked to the club and downed three rum punches while waiting for Joss to wake up from her afternoon nap and start her customary evening drinking. The sun sank into a rosy haze, and darkness came down like a purple curtain. Godfrey set a table for two and suspended a Coleman lantern from a beam. Joss appeared at last, and Burt saw why sheâd been delayed. Sheâd put on a dress, something she usually wore only for trips to St. Vincent or further. Rarer still, she wore a necklace and earrings, and a scent of violets had replaced her usual aura of saltwater, fish and rum.
They ate langouste tail by candlelight and washed it down with French wine. Joss talked with sparkling gaiety, and for a time Burt was in love with her. The white light of the Coleman lantern glowed on her bare shoulders and descended into the valley of her bosom; the surf thumped and rumbled; the breeze carried the smell of the sea into the club. Burt felt primitive and extremely male. It occurred to him that Joss had been without a husband for nearly a year, and that he himself was now free of ties. The pounding sea ringed the island and made it a private world.
He looked up as Godfrey shuffled out of the night carrying an empty tray. âMrs. Keenerâs?â
Joss answered with a trace of sarcasm, âYour lady friend is too delicate to eat in the presence of others.â
Burt smiled. âYouâd rather she joined us?â
âHell, I donât care.â She waved her hand impatiently. âNo, thatâs wrong. Iâd just as soon leave her alone. Her husbandâs letter mentioned a nervous breakdown, said his wife needed rest and quiet and no disturbance.â She frowned. âHe said heâd been here before, but I canât remember.â She leaned forward confidentially. âIâll tell you a secret, Burt. I donât remember people. A week after they leave they get lost in a sea of faces. People think itâs my poor eyesight when I donât recognize them again. I let âem think it. One of the tricks of the trade.â
Joss started on rum, and soon her cheeks were flushed and her voice low and husky. Burt drank with her, more than he should, in an attempt to recapture his earlier romantic glow. But it only saddened him. Finally, Joss put her warm hand on his knee.
âBurt, thereâs something you learn on an island, to accept your own nature. Donât worry about the boy you shot.â
Burt felt himself tense. âWhatâs that got to do with my nature?â
âYouâre a cop, you did your jobââ
âMaybe thatâs the problem.â
âBurt, if you werenât a cop youâd be on the other side: Youâve got a violent nature. It shows in your eyes, like smoke behind a window. Youâre a rough, hard manââ
âA killer, the newspapers said.â
She pushed away her glass. âOh, hell, I goofed. I wanted to cheer you up, but I got you mad.â
âIâm not mad.â
âDonât kid me, Burt. You talk soft and you move slow, but it shows. Your body changes. You turn into sharp edges and brutal bone. I had a boy friend onceââ She stopped and drew a deep breath. She got up suddenly, and stood swaying, her eyes bright. She spoke in a husky voice: âIâm stoned, Burt. Take me up to bed.â
He helped her up the crumbling stone steps behind the beach club and into her one-room cabin. She sat heavily on the bed. âDonât light the lamp, Burt.â
âNo.â
He walked silently to the door. Behind him came the faint
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