âItâs actually a very good name for you, Mei.â
Meiâs smile is tentative, about the first one sheâs given Dev all day. I can just imagine Dev tapping his head, saying, âItâs up here. Hereâs where it counts.â Well, I canât help it. Shawn Houser really pisses me off â just by breathing. Nothingâs going to stop me beating the innards out of him next time I have a chance. Not even Dev.
9
âWhere have you been? Iâve been looking for you all day.â Words are in my throat, rising up â â Iâve been to London to visit the Queen â â but I gulp them down in time. Granâs all right really. âIâve hardly seen you these holidays.â
âIâve just been fishing, Gran.â Weâre in the kitchen. Familiar home territory. Zoeâs there again. Then the calm shatters.
âMr Houser told me in the shop that youâd been seen with a man. You and Mei.â Zoeâs frowning, just like Gran. My hand in the cupboard stops reaching for the enamel plate. I knock a glass by mistake. âA man?â I find the plate, draw it out. âWho said?â
âApparently, his son Shawn told him.â
I make a disparaging sound, try to make it convincing and scornful. âShawn? He wouldnât know his own shadow if he puked on it.â
Gran cuts in. âI hope itâs not true. You see, Joel, itâs very important that youâre careful about strangers. Especially now. You mustnât talk to anyone you donât know.â I tell you sheâs weird about the stranger bit. She goes on and on. âCan you promise me you wonât talk to someone you donât know?â
I try to think. I already know Dev, right? Heâs not a stranger any more. âI guess so.â
Something unties inside Gran and she sits down at last, smiling. âIâve been telling Zoe all about you.â I check Zoeâs face. Sheâs smiling too. How come? People donât smile when they know all about me, they look kind of worried. I stare at Gran, annoyed. What is she playing at? And it gets worse. Sheâs ignoring my stare, acting all bright. âZoe says sheâs read about someone like you.â
But she goes too far. Something goes snap inside my head.
âYou mean, who gets into trouble all the time?â
âYes, butââ
âCanât think straight, canât do sums . . .â
Why is Gran doing this? Sheâs my ally. Sheâs always stuck up for me before.
âBut it wasnât his fault, Joel.â Zoe comes over then. âThe doctor gave him medication and he could think about what he wanted and stopââ
But I donât wait to hear any more. Theyâre ganging up on me. Itâs not fair. âI donât want any stupid medicine!â I run to my room, bang the door as loud as I can and lock it. I send a few well-chosen words out through the keyhole. Thatâll keep them at bay.
The problem is I canât stay in a locked room for long. After a light year of Sundays, I carefully turn the key back. No need to let them think theyâve won. I turn the door handle, give the door a little lift where it catches, then stick my head out into the passage, just as I hear Gran say to Zoe, âItâs not good for the boy. When are you going to tell him?â And Zoeâs muffled sniffing. They must still be talking about doctors so I make a noise on the way to the bathroom that would make an erupting volcano sound like a delicate pop. You should see the look on their faces! It shuts them up at least.
10
âYou donât seem like a biker really.â Iâm down at the boatshed with Dev, planning our next drop-in.
âIs that so?â
âYou look like one. But you donât seem rough enough.â
âHow do you mean, mate?â Itâs early; Devâs doing up his bootlaces.
âI thought