memories before they were gone, but it was no use.
Business dinner? Thereâs no business dinner. Lost? Youâre not lost. Your wife and kids? You donât have a wife and kids. Job? You donât have a job. Men with knives chasing you? No oneâs chasing you. Donât be silly.
Ben looked down at his knee. The scars from his ACL surgeries? Gone. His skin felt softer and smoother. There was no longer a wedding ring on his hand.
But
why would you have a wedding ring on your hand? Youâre twenty-one years old. Youâre not tired. Youâre not lost. This isnât a crisis. This is exactly where you want to be, Ben. Isnât it? Alone, with
her
?
âDo you want a beer?â she asked.
âYeah. Yeah, definitely.â
She stopped playing the guitar and reached over for a lukewarm can of cheap beer. Ben drank it all in one gulp. Any beer was good beer.
âWhy are you here?â he asked her, stifling a burp.
âFor the party.â
âWhat party?â
âThe party!â
âWhere are we?â
She gestured to the trees. âIn the woods, dummy!â
âBut . . .â
âMy favorite part of the party is when the party is over. When I donât feel obligated to have a good time, and I can just sit and chill with whoeverâs left to chill with, you know?â
He nodded like a simpleton. âTotally.â
The last time you saw her, she was a senior, wasnât she? One class ahead of you. Remember how nice she was to you? Nicer than girls usually were. She had that boyfriend, remember? Dave. Dave was all right, except for the fact that he had her and you didnât. And then, her final week at school, she ditched that boyfriend. Remember that one night? She was out at a party, now single and available. You stood near her that night as the stereo blared out through the frat house living room, and she scooped your hand up in hers. You never expected her to make a move. You never expected something that good to ever happen, did you, Ben? And you never expected to be so shitfaced at that exact moment. You could barely stand. So nothing happened. When you woke up the next morning, you had to go back home while she stayed on campus for graduation. That wasnât long ago. You remember her hand, donât you? Why donât you take her hand now? Why donât you get a taste of what a second chance feels like, kid?
He took her hand. She gave him a playful squeeze to let him know she liked it. She was wearing a friendship bracelet and the frayed ends tickled his wrist.
âDid I fuck up with you?â he asked her.
âWhat do you mean?â
âYou took my hand that one night, and I didnât do anything with it. I think I fucked that up.â
âOh, Iâve fucked up worse. I was in a bar once, and I saw this cute guy, so I went to drag him out to the dance floor without realizing that his leg was in a cast. I dragged him ten feet before letting him go.â
âNo, you didnât.â
âHonest to God.â
âWhere are you living now? Do you have a job or something?â
âNo, Iâm just hanging out.â
âThatâs cool.â
âThatâs coolâ? Thatâs all you can think to say, you idiot? Stop talking before you fuck up again.
Ben felt so hot next to her and the fire, but it was that wonderful, toasty kind of body heat that never gets uncomfortable. It was like sinking into a feather bed that only gets softer and warmer and more pleasurable to lie on.
âHow did we get here?â he asked her.
âThe path.â
A brief silence. All he could think to say was, âI wish I hadnât fucked up with you.â
So typical. Guys always get too serious too quickly, and they never realize it until itâs too late.
But it was all right tonight. Annie wasnât scared off. âYou didnât fuck up anything,â she told him. âSometimes the