playing with him yesterday.â
âOh, I get it. You had a dream about Pyoko.â
âNo, it wasnât a dream. Pyoko came to visit me at night, while I was still awake. He came flying into my room, full of life. And the thing is, he just went on talking and talking. I can understand some bird language now, so I knew what he was saying.â
âWow, thatâs really something,â Misao said, barely managing to maintain a neutral tone. âSo, um, what was Pyoko talking about?â
âHe was telling me about the place where heâs living now. He says itâs a really dark and dangerous place, and I should never go there because once somebody goes in, itâs almost impossible to get out again. But Pyoko is very clever, and he knows how to escape sometimes. Thatâs how he can visit me. Oh, and Mama? He says that place is full of bad monsters with big, scary faces. And he told me that when those monsters speak, a big wind starts to blow and everyone gets sucked into a giant hole.â
Misao sighed. It was supposed to be healthy to let a childâs imagination run wild, but Tamao had a tendency to carry make-believe to extremes. Maybe the way theyâd been raising her was overly indulgent, and this kind of far-fetched flight of fancy was the result. Or perhaps she and Teppei, as a couple, had unconsciously been transmitting their own somber feelings and residual regrets about the past, and over time that ambient gloominess had percolated down to Tamao, bit by bit, and had influenced her behavior.
âPyoko is looking down from heaven and watching over you,â Misao said gently, as if she were reading aloud from a childrenâs book. âHeâll be checking to see that you go to kindergarten and make lots and lots of wonderful new friends, the way youâre supposed to. Also, he wants to make sure you stay safe and donât catch a cold or anything like that. Thatâs whyââ
âYes, but he really did come to my room,â Tamao interrupted. âHe was perched right next to the bed. And he really did talk to me, a whole bunch.â
âI know, but that was just a dream.â
âNo, I keep telling you, it wasnât a dream,â Tamao said impatiently. âIt was real. Pyoko perched on the headboard of my bed for a while, and then he flew around the room, and a few times he landed on Pooh-Bearâs head.â Pooh-Bear was Tamaoâs favorite stuffed animal: a fuzzy white teddy bear.
âI see. Of course, thatâs probably what happened,â Misao said, trying to keep the distress out of her voice.
âI wonder if heâll come again tonight,â Tamao mused.
âHmm, I wonder,â Misao said uncomfortably.
Tamao continued prattling on about the dead bird, but while Misao made a show of listening intently, her thoughts were elsewhere. Was it maybe a bit too soon to be sending Tamao off to kindergarten? It was troubling to hear her daughter talking about something she had dreamed, or imagined when she was half asleep, as though it were empirical reality. Rather than abruptly plunging Tamao into a group situation, maybe it would be more appropriate to find some playmates of the same age or thereabouts, and let them run around outdoors and come home covered in mud. Baby steps , Misao thought.
No question about it, having Pyoko die mere hours after their move to a new house had been traumatic for Tamao. Misao suddenly remembered that the birdcage (encased in a plastic bag) was still out on the balcony, where she had hastily stashed it the first day. She really ought to put the cage somewhere out of sight, sooner rather than later. And to minimize the chances of Tamaoâs having any more of those disquieting dreams, she should probably put an end to her current custom of giving Tamao bedtime snacks of cookies or chocolate. No sweets after dinner, and an absolute minimum of liquids: that should be the policy from