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Harold, next time you come perhaps you could take out Ian by himself?’
    ‘What about Tom?’
    ‘Tom’d understand. He’s worried about Ian, I know.’
    ‘Right. I’ll do that. Count on me.’
    And Harold did come, and did take Ian off for a long walk along the sea’s edge, and Ian talked to Harold, whom he had known all his life, more like a second father.
    ‘He’s very unhappy,’ Harold reported to Roz and to Lil.
    ‘I know he is,’ said Lil.
    ‘He thinks he’s no good. He thinks he’s a failure.’
    The adults stared at this fact, as if it were something they could actually see.
    ‘Dut how can you be a failure at seventeen?’ said Lil.
    ‘Did we feel like that?’ asked ROZ.
    ‘I know I did,’ said Harold .’Don’t worry.’ And back he went to his desert university. He was thinking of getting married again.
    ‘Okay,’ said Roz. ‘If you want a divorce.’
    ‘Well, I suppose she’ll want kids,’ said Harold.
    ‘Don’t you know?’
    ‘She’s twenty-five,’ said Harold. ‘Do I have to ask?’
    ‘Ah,’ said Roz, seeing it all. ‘You don’t want to put the idea into her head?’ She laughed at him.
    ‘! suppose so,’ said Harold.
    Then Ian was again spending the night with Tom. Rather, he was there at bedtime. He went off to Harold’s room, and there was a quick glance at Roz, which she hoped Tom had not seen.
    When she woke in the night, ready to go off to the fridge for a drink, or just to wander about the house in the dark, as she often did, she did not go, afraid of hearing Ian crying, afraid she would not be able to stop herself going into him. But then she found he had blundered through the dark into her room and was beside her, clutching at her like a lifebelt in a storm. And she actually found herself picturing those seven black rocks like rotten teeth in the black night out there, the waves pouring and dashing around them in white cascades of foam.
    Next morning Roz was sitting at the table in the room that was open to the verandah, and the sea air, and the wash and hush and lull of the sea. Tom stumbled in fresh from his bed, the smell on him of youthful sleep. ‘Where’s Ian?’ he asked. Normally he would not have asked: both boys could sleep until midday.
    Roz stirred her coffee, around and around, and said, without looking at him, ‘He’s in my bed.’
    This normally would not have merited much notice, since this extended family’s casual ways could accommodate mothers and boys, or the women, or either boy with either woman, lying down for a rest or a chat, or the two boys, and, when he was around, Harold with any of them.
    Tom stared at her over his still-empty plate.
    Roz accepted that look, and her look back might as well have been a nod.
    ‘Jesus!’ said Tom.
    ‘Exactly,’ said Roz.
    And then Tom ignored his plate and possible orange juice, leaped up, grabbed his swimming-trunks from the verandah wall, and he sprinted off down to the sea. Usually he would have yelled at Ian to go too.
    Tom was not around that day. It was school holidays, but apparently he was off on some school holiday activity, generally scorned by him.

    Lil was away, judging some sports competition, and was not back until evening. She came into Roz’s house and said, ‘Roz, I’m whacked. Is there anything to eat?’
    Ian was at the table, sitting across from Roz but not looking at her. Tom had a plate of food in front of him. And now Tom began talking to Lil as if no one else was there. Lil scarcely noticed this, she was so tired, but the other two did. And he kept it up until the meal was over and Lil said she must go to bed, she was exhausted, and Tom simply got up and went with her into the dark.
    Next morning, lateish for them all, Tom walked back across the street and found Roz at the table, in her usual careless, comfortable pose, her wrap loose about her. He did not look at her but all around her, at the room, the ceiling, through a delirium of happy accomplishment. Roz did not