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that.”
    “Are you okay? Why didn’t you tell me?” His eyes widened as his arms gripped me tighter.
    “I wanted to. I was going to—really, I was, but…then I miscarried them both and didn’t want you to hurt like I was hurting.”
    “But you should’ve told me. I could’ve helped you, Audrey. I could’ve helped you get through it.” He pulled me closer, holding me so near I never wanted him to let go. “You don’t seem to be okay about this.”
    “I can’t have kids. The doctor told me it would take a lot of intervention and there would never be any guarantees I’d ever have a child.”
    His fingers toyed with my hair, sending shivers down my neck and spine. He was so calm, like a pillar that never crumbled. I wish I were as strong as him.
    “I’m sorry to hear that, my love. I love you. You know that, right?” Saul continued to run his fingers through my hair, calming my nerves with each stroke.
    “Yes…but…I was afraid to tell you because…” I choked on my words, hoping I could get through this.
    “First, because I didn’t know if you’d be mad that I couldn’t have children, and second…because I didn’t know who the father was the second time around.” I waited, my heart bursting from my chest as I bit on my tongue, waiting for Saul’s response.
    He took a step back and played my words back in his mind. “What did you say?”
    “I’m sorry. I messed up. It was a one-time thing. I—I…”
    “Who?”
    I gulped as the tears flooded my face. “It was nothing. I swear.”
    “Who was it, Audrey?” Saul took another step back, the look on his face tearing my heart to pieces. It was a mixture of horror, shock, and disbelief.
    “It was Random. I swear it never happened again. I just didn’t know if the baby was yours or his. The first time…the baby was definitely yours. I swear. I lost them both. I can’t have children.”
    Now I was babbling and sounding utterly pathetic. I couldn’t even manage to string a complete sentence together without sounding desperate. Each word, each heightened plea made my fight even more miniscule and futile.
    Another step back. A shake of his head.
    “Audrey, you…you were with Random? When? How could you not tell me?”
    It didn’t matter now. He was not close to me anymore. I felt my shoulders drop, feeling the cold of the slight breeze weave through the tiny holes of the sweater I wore.
    “Saul, I’m so sorry. I swear…it’ll never happen again. Please…don’t leave…”
    He shook his head, making me stop mid-sentence.
    “I loved you.”
    My lips quivered, freezing in the sudden gust of wind.
    “I know. I love you too.”
    He kept shaking his head, looking stunned before he turned away, holding out his walking stick and hurrying away, tapping it madly on the concrete as he went. I watched him until he disappeared around the bend. I wanted to follow, but I couldn’t move, couldn’t breathe, and couldn’t feel anything anymore.
    Why did I have to tell him everything? Why? What good had it done? I wiped my face on my sleeve, feeling the tears and snot freezing to my skin. Staring across the pond, I wanted to run into it and freeze to death. Saul had left, but it was all my fault. I’d chased him away. The only person I’d ever truly loved besides my sister was now gone.
    He was the only thing that truly meant anything to me, and I had gone and screwed it up.
    I let my sobs sputter inside me as I leaned on the railing, wishing again to fall into the frigid water and drown. The sun felt even colder as the moments ticked by, offering no comfort in my grief.
    How could I lose Saul? How could I have ever thought it would be okay to do this to him? I’d lied, cheated, and treated him like garbage. I’d left him shattered, when I was the one who deserved everything I was being given now. This empty hole ripped inside my heart was all my fault.
    Good things always come to an end.
     
     

Chapter Seven
     
     
     
     
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