remained essentially mysterious to him, even after he cut them open and looked inside their brains. Four years and hundreds of mice and thousands of dollars and simple questions of behavior could not be solved, so how on earth did this girl want to solve the origins of life?
Or, to put it another way: how to explain to a girl like this the difference between that which could be quantified and that which could be taken only on faith?
Andy looked down at the glossy black lab table, saw his face reflected back. He was forty for a few more months, and looked exactly forty, exactly average, except for what might be thicker-than-average sandy-colored hair. He had blurry bags under his eyes. He no longer slept very well. He was haunted by a ghost.
âMelissa, Iâm an advocate of student inquiry, I really am,â he said, hearing himself retreat to pedantry, irritating even himself. âAnd if youâd like to inquire into the nature of God, Iâm sure you can find a religion professorââ
âI donât want to inquire into the nature of God. Thatâs what I do at church, not at school.â
âExactly.â
âI want to study the origin of life, and thatâs something you study in the biology department.â
âI suppose so,â Andy said. âBut I think it depends on the way you undertake the study.â
âSo youâre saying you wonât support my research,â the girl said. Her voice was matter-of-fact, but she was slumping.
âMelissa,â Andy said, âthe thing about intelligent design is that thereâs no way to put the theory through the scientific method, so thereâs no way to say whether or not itâs right or wrong. I canât support your research because thereâs no real research that can be performed on the subject. No way to apply the scientific method toward questions of intentionality in the design of the planet.â
âSo you wonât sponsor me?â
The black-rimmed clock above his lab table clicked loudly toward 3:55. It would take him thirty minutes minimum to get to Rachelâs practice, and he still had a few papers to file upstairs. Still, the look on this girlâs face, disappointed, maybe even disgusted. Well. It was the first day of the semester. Would it kill him to try to be a little generous? To try to recapture just a bit of the optimism with which heâd arrived this morning?
âLetâs brainstorm for a minute, Melissa. I bet we could come up with something else. Something we could try out in the labâmaybe we could even do a little experiment with the mice. Would that work for you?â
âNo,â she said.
Andy forced himself not to sigh. The clock ticked again, as was its irregular habit.
âIntelligent design,â said the girl, âor nothing,â and first Andy wanted to punch her, but then, regarding her stubborn expression, felt curiously and briefly cheered. A determined student! Well, good on her. Also he thought, fuck this, he had to get out of there, he needed to prep for tomorrowâs undergraduate onslaught, and he wanted to see his daughterâs practice, but Melissa looked so grim, so enormous with steely grimness, that despite himself he pulled out the stool from behind his lab table and with a chivalrous hand gesture invited her to sit down.
âThere are so many issues concerning evolution that scientists havenât even begun to fathom, Melissa. I feel certain thereâs something youâd find interesting if you just agreed to look.â
She shook her potato-shaped head. âI have a question for you, Professor Waite.â
He noted that her eyes were surprisingly light, a greenish gray.
âThere are two ways to see the world, right?â she said. âI mean, there are probably many more than two ways, but what Iâm asking you here is to imagine two ways of looking at the world.â
âTwo ways,â