but more complete.
Slowly, I scanned that book, whispering sentences aloud. I reread the last fifteen pages, which left me cold. How could this be? Nervously, I changed some punctuation and made other corrections. I wondered: How could you work so hard on a book and yet remain ambivalent?
Then I decided to rewrite the college romance one more time, and after that I would attempt to get it published.
13. Death of a Crooner
My Argentine pals could not resist the lure of Rockefeller Center during the holiday season. Alfonso, Luigi, and I took a bus up there and walked around for an afternoon. We bumped into Eduardo, who tagged along with us as we ogled the enormous decorated tree and the gold statue of Prometheus. We gazed at rich people skating circles at the ice rink. In St. Patrickâs Cathedral, Luigi and Eduardo lit several candles.
âWho are you lighting them for?â Alfonso asked.
âI am lighting this candle for my own face,â Luigi answered.
Eduardo said, âI am lighting this candle so God will strike down my wife, Adriana, with a thunderbolt.â
âSheâs not your wife, sheâs your ex-wife,â Luigi reminded him.
Alfonso lit one taper for Renata, his volatile Argentine lover, and another for SofÃa, his pragmatic Buenos Aires girlfriend.
âIâm playing it safe,â he explained. âLike Henry the Eighth.â
We mingled with the crowds and ate hot chestnuts and bought four green cookies shaped like evergreen trees. Bells rang, carols played, and everyone had rosy cheeks. Alfonso showed us the building where Diego Rivera had done a mural that the Rockefellers destroyed because it depicted the face of Lenin. Eduardo complained that he hadnât been laid ever since Adriana began dating the âpimp.â
We went window-shopping up one side of Fifth Avenue to the Plaza Hotel at Fifty-ninth Street and down the other sidetoward Forty-second Street. Cheery colored lights blinked around displays of jewelry on beds of angel hair. I wanted to buy Cathy Escudero a Christmas present. I wanted to spend all the dollars I could earn over a year for a gold bracelet, a string of pearls, or a pair of diamond earrings from Tiffanyâs or Van Cleef & Arpels.
Instead, Eduardo borrowed ten bucks from me. âIâm broke. I forgot my wallet.â That cleaned me out. âDonât worry, blondie, Iâll give it back when next we meet at the kiosk.â
Luigi halted dead in his tracks. A beautiful woman was approaching us, tall and brunette, wearing silver hoop earrings and a knee-length mink coat. Her hair bounced against her shoulders with great verve and she had an air of self-satisfied gaiety. She carried no packages so her arms were swinging freely.
The burnt man spread his hands wide apart and, in heavily accented English, proclaimed to the universe, âLook at this beautiful woman!â
The lady stopped, contemplating our comrade with a perplexed frown. Then she brightened, laughing. âAnd you are a beautiful guy.â She walked right up to Luigi, kissed him on the cheekââMerry Christmas, little manââand continued on her way.
âWhat about
me
?â Eduardo called after her in Spanish. To us he moaned, âYou see? Adriana has cursed me. When we were married I had a dozen chicas on the side. Now that Iâm âfreeâ they ignore me because Iâm a cuckold.â
When we reached Forty-second Street Alfonso said, âLetâs go into the library.â
We crossed the avenue. Two small boys were sitting astride one of the concrete lions while their father took a picture. Inside, Alfonso led us upstairs to the newspaper reading room. He checked out a
New York Times
microfilm and we gathered around him while he searched for the day that Argentinaâs famous singer Carlos Gardel had diedâMonday, June 24, 1935.
An article explained that after a successful Bogotá concert, Gardelâs