he poured himself a well-deserved nightcap. Sobering up was easier said than done, he realized. Fucking Ann, he thought as the cognac burned through his bloodstream. He sat in a chair in front of the fireplace and hooked an ankle over his knee. Then he pressed the snifter to his forehead as though it could somehow draw out the pain.
The first time he had seen Ann, heâd been stupefied. His mother had talked nonstop for weeks about the Flower Girl, some urchin selling roses on the corner of 23 rd and Broadway. Felicia had passed the girl daily on her way to the office, buying up her wares for some obscure reason Patrick had never been able to fathom. Then the Flower Girl had disappeared. For the better part of two days, his mother had been franticâuntil the detective sheâd hired to track her down found her holed up in the sanctuary of a church five or six blocks from the corner.
Then Felicia had brought her home. At the time, Patrick had conjured an image of her in his mindâfair, ephemeral, sweet. Instead, Felicia had brought a flu-stricken tramp into their house, one with straw-straight hair, hollow eyes, and cheeks dry and livid with fever.
It had been right after Christmas. Patrick remembered hovering unseen outside the library door, listening to his mother talk about her with Cal Everham, her personal doctor and friend. The man had come by to examine the girl.
âItâs a nasty strain of flu this year,â Cal had said. They leaned close together, nose to nose, in front of the fireplace. âShe should probably be hospitalized. Where did you find her?â
âIt doesnât matter. I suspect sheâs a runaway,â Felicia had said. âNo parent would allow a child to live this way.â
Cal placed his hand over hers. âIt wouldnât happen in
your
world, Felicia. But who knows where this girl hails from.â
âShe wonât tell me anything. She seems to hate me even for asking. Cal, I tell you, those begging eyes haunt me.â
For what? Patrick had wanted to shout sense into her.
For your money!
âSheâs alone in the world, Cal, Iâm sure of it.â
âI can find her a bed at Bellevue.â
âNo. Sheâd only run. Iâll keep her here, at least until sheâs better.â
âFelicia, thatâs a risk.â
She gave him a patented Felicia smile. Small, enigmatic. Almost eerily wise. âShe canât even stand up without help, Cal. Sheâs hardly capable of robbing me blind.â
âYouâre too trusting.â
âI know this child. Iâve been talking to her every morning, every afternoon for weeks now.â
âYou just said she avoids all your questions.â
Felicia took her hand back. âSheâs afraid of me. I could turn her in to the authorities. Iâm sure she figures that the less I know about her, the better.â
âBut you keep asking anyway.â
âGod knows why, but she reminds me of myself at her age. We just have to be patient. I have an instinct about this girl. Time willbear me out.â Felicia stood. âIâll have Francesca feed her for a while, put some meat back on her bones, then weâll take it from there.â
Patrick had watched his mother pick up a brass snuffer and place it neatly over the flickering flame of a candle. Felicia spoke again after a long beat of silence. âCal, I was so poor when my Frederick started whittling those clowns. He had a talent for bringing them to life. And thatâs why they sold as well as they did.â
Cal waited.
âOne merchant, one man in one out-of-the-way burg in Canada, took them on. He saw something in the clowns that made him willing to take the chance.â
âOr he saw something in you,â Cal suggested.
âI
was
good,â she said wistfully. âIn everyoneâs life, one person must take a chance on them.â
âIn an ideal world, yes.â
âIf
Frances and Richard Lockridge