The old man was gone.
Jon thought about the tissues on the floor, the unexpected
sight of the old man naked, but surely it was more than
that. The thought that he’d somehow driven him off was not
something he wanted to contend with. Not now. Not with
all this work still to be done, this flickering mass of pixelated
crap.
He pulled the curtains shut, drained the scotch, shut down
the computer and turned on the dying minutes of a football
game. Took a couple more painkillers. His headache had
settled behind his eyes, fine white pins of pain piercing his
retinas.
The phone rang.
It sounded like something snapping inside his head.
Each ring seemed to get louder. Dave checking he was
working. Dave hassling him. He almost didn’t pick it up. But
what if it was Jake? He picked up, said, ‘Hello’, trying not to
slur, to sound too drunk or drugged.
‘Mr Jon Reed?’
‘Yes?’ he said, muting the TV.
‘My name is Detective Ronald van Hijn, Amsterdam
police.’ There was a pause in which the detective seemed to
be lost for words. Jon stared blankly at the mute players
dancing across the brilliant green. The detective coughed.
His voice sounded thin and far away. ‘I’m afraid I have some
bad news for you, Mr Reed.’
Wouter tied her to the four corners of the bed using pairs of
tights he had taken out of her drawer. The arms came first;
small wrists covered by smooth Lycra, pinioned to the brass
ends of the headboard. When he was satisfied that her arms
were safely pinned, he began tying her feet, wrapping the
tights around her ankles, ankles he dearly loved, and pulling
them across to either side of the bed.
Suze said nothing, didn’t struggle, let him continue with his
slow seduction as she stared at the black of the blindfold that
covered her eyes and saw the desert appear in front of her.
It was a good image. An image drawn from the vast
repository of her youth. Before things had turned bad.
Before …
She focused on the lone mesa in the distance, black and
mysterious in the corners of her memory, as she heard him
taking off clothes, coughing, getting on top of the bed and
mumbling something in Dutch.
She told him to hit play on the deck. The sound of the
Geraldine Fibbers’ second album, Butch, alternatingly soft
and savage, saturated the room. She felt his tongue, warm
and sticky, slide up her thigh, and though it was almost like
being tickled, she tried not to move or squirm, instead letting
the creeping sensitivity drown her as it raced across her body
making nipples stand cold and rosy, skin prick up as if
expecting an unexpected guest. He noticed this and began
to play with her breast, grabbing the nipple slightly between
his teeth, tightening the grip and gently releasing as he heard
her moan.
He lit a cigarette, reached over to the bedside table and
picked the two clothes pegs off it. She felt the cold plastic
clamp her nipple and the warm trickle of pleasure that
coursed up through her neck and down her thighs. She saw
the desert, the hands of her mother shaking in an alcoholic
rage, the sound of her father on an answering machine, the
closest she got to him for many years, that disembodied
crackle and pulse of humming lines and whispered, breathy
urgencies that could only be expressed in the close confines
of a faraway telephone booth - she saw all that and then it
was blown away, scattered and gone.
He placed the other clothes peg, twisted it so that her
nipple seemed almost to blush as the blood engorged it,
darkening the already dark skin there. He felt her move,
gyrate slightly, though he could sense that in some essential
way she was no longer with him, that somehow in her
restraints she’d managed to escape to somewhere small and
private, and he entered her then, feeling himself ready to
explode, the cigarette slowly burning down in the ashtray
beside the bed.
*Now that wasn’t too hard, was it?’ Suze said as he undid