they want different things.
What I want is a little harder to define, blurrier. Iâm not possessed to be the best like Zoey and Michaela. Iâve tried a bunch of activitiesâfrom my childhood stint playing the violin, to freshman year as the worldâs least peppy cheerleader, to sophomore year in yearbook. Dad says Iâm well rounded; Zoey says I have commitment issues.
The only thing thatâs stuck is writing for the Wildwood Herald . Originally, I joined the paper to fluff out the activities portion of my college apps, but when my first article about sex trafficking was printedâveryedgy stuff in comparison to the puff pieces on sports teams and marching band trips my colleagues produceâI was hooked. Just staring at my name in bold black font next to the word âbyâ gave me a sugar rush. Here was an article that was by me instead of about me and Jeanie. Sure our school newspaper is only a four-page newsletter that masquerades as a news-bearing paper, but itâs better than no experience if I want to write in college.
Coleâand Iâd never say this to her faceâis kind of an experiment. Girls have been vying to get in with the three of us for all of high school. It wasnât until Cole strolled through the quad on a Monday morning in white jean short-shorts, strappy sandals, and a DEATH TO HIPSTERS T-shirt that Zoey took notice of a newbie. Every guy in a hundred-yard radius froze as her wavy blond hair caught the wind. I think itâs the first time Zoey ever felt fear. Donât get me wrong, Zoeyâs way hotter than Cole, and thatâs not just my bestie-love talking. But exotic things have a unique appeal to guys, and a girl from a SoCal beach town is as exotic as it gets. Zoey knew she had a choice to make. When we met up in the parking lot to go off campus for lunch, Zoey had Cole in tow.
Iâve always thought Zoey could be one of those grand-masterâalthough sheâd insist on calling herself a grand-mistressâchess players. She understood that it was better to make a friend than to see the new girl become her rival. Donât wage a war you canât win.
My car groans and shudders as I accelerate over the dirt road riddled with potholes. After a sharp right turn, we emerge onto a gravel lot. There must be sixty or seventy cars already. I park alongsidea burnt-orange Mustang that I recognize as Taylorâs. Cole jumps out of the car before we even stop. Zoey winks devilishly, leans over the emergency brake, and practically purrs, âYou know we wonât be mad if you ditch us and end up making it with Taylor.â
âDoubtful. Iâm still freaked over earlier.â She flicks her wrist like it was nothing. âPlus, I donât really relish my first time being in a cramped backseat on the anniversary of . . . you know.â
Zoey juts out her pink-gloss-coated bottom lip in a pretend pout and then grins. âI understand. Letâs just have the best night ever then, âkay?â
She tucks a rogue wisp of hair behind my ear as Michaela reaches for my keys and adds, âIâll drive you home the nanosecond you want to go.â I smile gratefully at them both.
âHurry up, lesbos!â Cole yells from outside the car, dancing on her tiptoes.
Out of the car, the pulsating music makes the ground quake; the bass works its way into my bones, and I canât help but look forward to dancing under the stars. A few hundred yards from the shore, we walk through a labyrinth of parked cars. With every step, the details of the bonfire zoom into sharper focus.
The campfire is as tall as several stacked cars and as wide as the length of one. âCrazeballs,â Cole whispers in awe. Its heat warms my face from a hundred feet away. All around it stand girls and boys in little more than their underwear.
âHa,â Zoey scoffs. âAmateurs. Thatâs exactly why I wore my swimsuit under my