his books, seven copies of each one, and they were all very long, and she had to do it by hand because typewriters hadnât been invented. Or they didnât have one, anyway. So it wasnât as bad for me as it was for her.â
âBut you didnât get paid for it?â asked Pauline hopefully. If Ursula had been paid, even by her husband, this would partly have excluded her from the sisterhood of unemployed married women. âUncle Gerald didnât pay you?â
âHe kept me,â said Ursula.
âWell, of course, that goes without saying. Brian keeps me, if you like to put it that way.â
âI didnât always do it.
Hand to Mouth
was the last one I did, and that was 1984. After that, he typed them himself.â
âBut why did you stop?â said Pauline.
Ursula didnât answer. She was wondering how many minutes after they got up from the table she could go out for her walk. Twenty, probably. Pauline began to clear the table. She hadnât yet asked Ursula if Uncle Gerald had left her well-off or comfortably off or just able to manage. She hadnât asked if Ursula would have to sell the house or take in lodgers or do B and B, though Ursula knew she was dying to know the answers to all these questions. Everyone assumed that Gerald had left everything to Sarah and Hope, and Ursula, though she had gotten over the shock of his death, if shock it had been, hadnât yet adjusted to his surprising bequests.
âI shall go out for my walk in ten minutes,â she said when they had loaded the dishwasher.
âIn this fog?â said Pauline with an artificial shudder.
âIt isnât fog; itâs just sea mist.â
âOh, I know thatâs what you call it. You always did call it sea mist. It was the only thing I didnât like about coming to stay here, that white sea fog. And Uncle Gerald hated it, didnât he? I remember he would never go out in it; he used to shut himself up in his study. Why was that?â
âI donât know,â said Ursula.
âDoes it upset you when I talk about him, Auntie Ursula?â
âI think you could drop the âAuntie,â donât you?â said Ursula, not for the first time.
âIâll try,â said Pauline, âbut it will be very hard to get out of the habit.â
Hardly anyone came down to the beach when the mist rolled in from the sea. The car park emptied, the surfers retreated into their caravans, and the hotel guests went back to the indoor swimming pool. The beach, which was seven miles long and, when the tide was out, a half of a mile wide, was overhung by a white curtain, so that when you were on it, in the sand, the dunes and the sea became invisible. Ursula could see her own feet, and the beachstretching away in front of her and on either side of her for some yards, but she couldnât see the hummocky wrinkled green dunes to the left of her or the water, to the right of her, creeping silently across the sand.
The mist would wet her hair and settle on her clothes in fine droplets, but she didnât mind this. It wasnât cold. Sometimes she thought she preferred misty days to clear ones, when you could see the headland and the estuary and Westward Ho! and, looming on the clifftop, the hotel and its garden and all those flowers in primary colors. She walked southward halfway between the edge of the dunes and the edge of the incoming tide, sometimes looking up to see a distant dazzlement of sun through the thickness of white gauze, but more often down at the sand.
The sand was sometimes quite flat and packed hard, but on other days, by some strange action of the tideâs passage, it was pulled into wrinkles like the skin that forms on boiled milk. Today, though, it was smooth, a dark ocher color, but streaked here and there in a chevron pattern with a fine glittery black dust. Visitors to Gaunton thought the black streaks, which looked as if a magnet had