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me, causing me to flinch at the loss. He turns to look directly into my eyes. He grabs my face with each of his hands and pulls me closer to him. If anyone around us was watching they’d think he was going to kiss me but I know that’s not what this is. There is such sadness in his eyes that it’s breaking my heart for the pain I know he must be feeling. “Don’t ever thank me, Becca, not after how I treated you. Not after everything I’ve done. Please don’t thank me.” I see tears in his eyes and I pull him toward me, hugging him tightly. His head is on my shoulders and I feel the wetness from his tears now coming through my shirt.
    I sit there for what seems like forever, just holding him, before he begins to talk. “Becca, I am so sorry for everything I’ve said to you. I just wish you could forgive me for being such an ass. I was going through a hard time when I came back to school. I should have waited longer before I came back. I never would have treated you that way if I had dealt with all my shit. Don’t get me wrong, I’m a man, and you are beautiful. I was hitting on you, but then I just hated you. None of that was your fault. I never meant to be this guy who you had to avoid. My….” The tears are falling down his face and I put my hand in his to show him that he’s not alone. “My sister died right before I met you and I just… you reminded me of her. She never took shit from me or anyone else and that drew me to you. I was intrigued, but when I found out you were Alec’s little sister, I hated you. I hate him because he still gets to have a little sister. Her death is my fault, and I shouldn’t get to have you in my life now either.”
    I shake my head at his words. “It’s not your fault, Drake. I know better than most that sometimes bad things happen and it’s no one’s fault.” I look to his eyes and I see the hurt lying behind those crystal eyes.
    “She took sleeping pills and never woke up. She killed herself, Becca.” I do the only thing I can think of and embrace him with all the unspoken emotions I’m feeling at this point. “Jake came to me after what happened with you and Keegan. He told me that you took some extra pills. He asked me questions about you because of my history. After my sister died, I started working for a suicide hotline. When he told me what had happened, I just felt like the similarities where ripping me open. I hated you more than anything after that moment.”
    I remember that night that Jake had struggled to wake me. I just wanted to sleep without dreams and without being kept awake by my broken heart, after finding Keegan fooling around with Sarah. Jake was sure that I might have done it on purpose but I told him it was an accident. He must have gone to Drake after that. It also explains why Drake was going out of his way to make my life hell afterwards and couldn’t look at me without a hateful look in his eyes. “I’m so sorry about your sister, Drake, but that doesn’t make you a bad brother and it one hundred percent doesn’t make you at fault. Take it from a little sister that sometimes we do things that we may regret. We might get into trouble; we might feel alone and sad, just wanting this life to end. But her taking her own life was not your fault. I’d never want Alec to walk around with that guilt weighing on his shoulders.”
    Drake has made so many things clearer by his admission to me about our history. I would never have guessed he had all this bottled up inside. “Becca, you can’t do that to Alec. I know about everything and that it wasn’t only an attempt. Just remember that no matter what happens, there are people that love you. Even though I’ll admit that your life is pretty screwed up and it’s in a royal sort of way, but I’ve learned that it’s selfish. In my opinion, at least, but I don’t want you to think that if you are upset or just need a friend to talk to, that you’re alone. You can talk to me. I’ll be