okay?â Mr. Sirk called.
âJust getting my second wind,â I answered. I wiped the sweat from my eyes. Then I leaped to the top rowâand my legs buckled.
I managed to stay on my feet, but my knees wouldnât stop shaking.
Whatâs wrong with me today? This has never happened before.
My heart began to race wildly.
I tried to calm down, but I couldnât. I pictured myself chomping on the sponge sandwich and eating the paste. Eating the paste â out of control .
âKinny! What are you waiting for?â Mr. Sirk yelled.
My legs trembled as I spun around.
Concentrate! I ordered myself. Stop thinking and run!
I stared down at the long rows of bleachers.
I tried to clear my mind.
I lifted my leg to take the first jumpâand the gym began to spin.
âNooooo!â I cried out as my foot missed the bleacher.
I was falling. Falling.
No way to stop.
The next thing I knew, Mr. Sirk was leaning over me. âKinny! Are you okay?â
âUh-huh.â I nodded, struggling to my feet. âWh-what happened?â
âIt looked like you slipped up there,â Mr. Sirk replied. âKevin stopped your fall on his way up.â
Kevin stared at me oddlyâas if I were a stranger.
âYouâre usually good for half a dozen laps,â Mr. Sirk went on. âWhatâs wrong?â
âI donât know,â I answered, confused. âI wish I knew. I really wish I knew.â
10
K evin and I walked home together after school. âWhatâs with you today?â he said.
âWhat do you mean?â I asked, feeling uncomfortable.
âWhat do you mean, what do I mean?â he replied. âYou know what I mean.â
âHey, guys! Wait up!â It was Lissa, running up behind us.
âSam, you have to stop by our house before you go home,â she said, out of breath. âYou have to see our new karate move. Right, Kevin?â
âRight,â Kevin agreed. âAunt Sylvie said she made contact with the spirit of Bruce Lee lastnight. She said he showed her one of his incredible moves. Then she taught it to us. Sheâs great at it. Maybe sheâll show it to you.â
âCan I, um, see it tomorrow? I promised my mom Iâd come straight home from school and help her clean out the basement,â I lied. My legs still felt wobbly, I wanted to go straight home, and I really didnât feel like seeing Aunt Sylvie today.
âOkay,â Lissa said. âBut donât forget. You really have to see this one!â
âSure,â I said as I turned the corner to my house. âTomorrow.â
When I walked through my front door, I actually started to feel like my old self again. My legs seemed more solid, and I had my appetite backâmy normal appetite, for some real food.
âMom!â I yelled. âIâm home.â
No answer.
âMom! Iâm home!â I yelled louder this time. âIâm hungry.â
Still no answer.
âI havenât eaten anything all day, Mom!â I shouted.
No reason to tell her about the paste. Right?
Right.
And I couldnât anyhow. She wasnât home.
I dropped my backpack on the counter and opened the refrigerator. Rye bread, grape jelly, leftover beans. I scanned the shelves and grabbed two hard-boiled eggs.
I sat down at the kitchen table and separated the whites from the yolks. On the chair next to me sat Momâs newest dollâthe biggest one sheâs made so far. It was taller than I am, and it had long red hair and freckles. Almost finished, the only things missing were its eyes.
I bet I know where Mom went, I realized. To find eyes for the doll.
I popped a piece of the egg white into my mouthâand spit it out. It tasted bitterâand gritty. In fact, it scratched my tongue.
There must have been eggshell stuck to it, I realized as I tossed it into the trash. A rotten egg with the shell still stuck to itâyuck.
I bit into