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than her own life, dashing to me, smothering the flames with her own body … giving her life that mine might be preserved.
    Yes, Belinda, I thought, you have brought back memories to me.
    I talked of Belinda to Celeste and to my father.
    “Poor, poor Leah,” said Celeste. “I wonder if there is any hope of her recovering. She does not say what is wrong.”
    “No. But she is too ill to travel. I am sure that if she were well enough she would bring Belinda to us.”
    “All we can do,” said my father, “is to wait and see what happens. In any case we have offered her a home here. It is all we can do.”
    So it was left at that.
    Soon after that, there was talk of an election and that, as usual, dominated everything else.
    The mission to Buganda would naturally have to be postponed until after we knew what government would be in power.
    “I have to make sure that I hold my seat before it is decided whether I shall be a member of the mission,” said Joel.
    “Of course you’ll hold your seat,” I replied. “It’s a tradition that a Greenham shall represent Marchlands.”
    “One can never be entirely sure.”
    The excitement was growing. It was nearly six years since the last election. I was an adult now with a keen interest and some understanding of what was going on.
    We studied the papers every day. Gladstone’s age was often referred to. The man was undoubtedly grand but was he too old? He seemed vigorous enough in mind if he was rather bent and walked with a stick.
    “And it’s the mind that counts,” said my father.
    The Queen’s comment to her secretary was reported. “The idea of a deluded, excited man of eighty-two trying to govern England and my vast Empire, with miserable democrats under him, is quite ridiculous. It is like a bad joke.”
    “Unfortunate,” said my father. “First that she said it, and secondly that it was allowed to leak out.”
    “But it is the people who choose the government … not the Queen,” I added.
    “For which we have to be thankful,” he added wryly.
    Soon the action started. The Greenhams went down to Marchlands and we to Manorleigh. The campaign had begun in earnest.
    Celeste and I sat on platforms with my father. It created a pleasant family atmosphere which the people liked their member to have. We played our small parts, riding round the country in our dogcart—for Manorleigh was a straggling constituency and contained many outlying villages—and telling people why they should vote for Benedict Lansdon.
    My father was a dynamic speaker. He could hold an audience, in vast assembly rooms or village halls, absolutely spellbound. Listening to him one realized the power of words and the gift of using them which was surely essential to a man who wanted to rise in politics. My father had many assets, but with them went that rashness which had tripped him up once or twice and which was the reason why people were not looking to him to follow Gladstone.
    He did spare time from his busy campaign to go down to Marchlands to speak for Joel.
    I was surprised really, because although he was certain that he would retain his own seat, he had always said that no prospective candidate should relax even for a short time.
    But he had a special feeling for Joel; and I believed I knew why. It was because of me. He had made up his mind that I was going to marry Joel and I had a fancy that he wanted to mold Joel into his alter ego. Joel was going to catch all the plums which had failed to fall into his own hands, and he was going to enjoy the act of putting them there. He wanted to see Joel as his creation. It was a passing thought but men such as my father must have power. Perhaps he saw that certain events in his life had prevented him from snatching the top prize and that irked him.
    I was nearer to him than any living person and I believed he was planning to marry me to a man made in his image. I had heard stories of his grandfather—Uncle Peter, as everyone in the family called