think oât noo?â I was obliged to apologise to the honest fellow, and acknowledge that I was as puzzled by it as he was. Perhaps to-morrow things may look different. At present I dare hardly write all that I think. Reading it again in days to come, when I have shaken off all these associations, I should despise myself for having been so weak.
September 18th.
âPassed a restless and uneasy night, still haunted by that strange sound. The captain does not look as if he had had much repose either, for his face is haggard and his eyes bloodshot. I have not told him of my adventure of last night, nor shall I. He is already restless and excited, standing up, sitting down, and apparently utterly unable to keep still.
A fine lead appeared in the pack this morning, as I had expected, and we were able to cast off our ice-anchor, and steam about twelve miles in a west-souâ-westerly direction. We were then brought to a halt by a great floe as massive as any which we have left behind us. It bars our progress completely, so we can do nothing but anchor again and wait until it breaks up, which it will probably do within twenty-four hours, if the wind holds. Several bladder-nosed seals were seen swimming in the water, and one was shot, an immense creature more than eleven feet long. They are fierce, pugnacious animals, and are said to be more than a match for a bear. Fortunately they are slow and clumsy in their movements, so that there is little danger in attacking them upon the ice.
The captain evidently does not think we have seen the last of our troubles, though why he should take a gloomy view of the situation is more than I can fathom, since everyone else on board considers that we have had a miraculous escape, and are sure now to reach the open sea.
âI suppose you think itâs all right now, Doctor?â he said, as we sat together after dinner.
âI hope so,â I answered.
âWe mustnât be too sureâand yet no doubt you are right. Weâll all be in the arms of our own true loves before long, lad, wonât we? But we mustnât be too sureâwe mustnât be too sure.â
He sat silent a little, swinging his leg thoughtfullybackwards and forwards. âLook here,â he continued; âitâs a dangerous place this, even at its bestâa treacherous, dangerous place. I have known men cut off very suddenly in a land like this. A slip would do it sometimesâa single slip, and down you go through a crack, and only a bubble on the green water to show where it was that you sank. Itâs a queer thing,â he continued with a nervous laugh, âbut all the years Iâve been in this country I never once thought of making a willânot that I have anything to leave in particular, but still when a man is exposed to danger he should have everything arranged and readyâdonât you think so?â
âCertainly,â I answered, wondering what on earth he was driving at.
âHe feels better for knowing itâs all settled,â he went on. âNow if anything should ever befall me, I hope that you will look after things for me. There is very little in the cabin, but such as it is I should like it to be sold, and the money divided in the same proportion as the oil-money among the crew. The chronometer I wish you to keep yourself as some light remembrance of our voyage. Of course all this is a mere precaution, but I thought I would take the opportunity of speaking to you about it. I suppose I might rely upon you if there were any necessity?â
âMost assuredly,â I answered; âand since you are taking this step, I may as wellââ
âYou! You!â he interrupted.
âYouâre
all right. What the devil is the matter with
you?
There, I didnât mean to be peppery, but I donât like to hear a young fellow, that has hardly began life, speculating about death. Go up on deck and get some fresh air into your
Seraphina Donavan, Wicked Muse