this a foot?â
âItâs a hock,â Mom said. âEat it.â
He did.
She said nothing about Holy Trinity during dinner, but I caught her watching me like sheâd seen cracks in my surface and worried about them getting bigger. After we cleared the plates, she poured coffee and asked Jason to take out the garbage.
She put both elbows on the table and rested her chin on thebacks of her hands. âWhy were you at the church when Judy Terrano got killed?â
I sighed and leaned back in my chair. âI wasnât. I came afterward. I was working for her assistant, the man who shot himself. A divorce case.â
She sighed, too, like that relieved her. But she said, âDid you have your gun?â
My Glock 23 had been sleeping in my glove compartment all day. âThis was a divorceââ
âYour father would have had his.â
âPlease donât,â I said.
âHe would have.â
âHe wouldnât, because cops donât work divorce cases.â
âHe worked North Side, South Side, and West Side, but wherever he worked he took his gun.â
âCan we change the subject?â
âNo, we canât. These peopleâthese people youâre working with are dangerous.â
âMom,â I said, trying my best, âthese people are a nun and her assistant. Something went wrong today, and itâs sad and ugly and all that, but it didnât happen because theyâre dangerous.â
She glared at me like I was mocking her. âI know who they are. Do you know Judy Terranoâs background?â
âI was working for her assistant, not her.â
âAnd what do you know about him?â
I knew a large caliber bullet had taken off the bottom half of his face. I knew he shot himself, or, if he didnât, Eric Stone did. I knew he burned a $65,000 Mercedes. I knew he loved his wife. âNothing,â I said. âBut Judy Terrano was a nun.â
âI know what she was.â
Jason came in from dumping the garbage, and our talk ended.Over dessert, Mom went back to watching my face for cracks. When she kissed me good night, she whispered, âAlways carry your weapon.â
âCome for dinner on Friday,â I answered.
âI donât eat takeout,â she said.
âIâll cook.â
She kissed me again. âIâll eat beforehand.â
Jason and I got back to my house a little after 10:30. As soon as heâd changed into his pajamas, I made a show of looking at my watch and announced, âBedtime.â
He shook his head. âFrom now on Iâm going to stay awake at night.â
âLike an owl?â
He nodded.
âAnd for your two A.M . lunch, youâll eat what?âmice?â
âIâll call out for pizza.â
I picked him up over my shoulder.
He laughed. âWhat are you doing?â
âIâm carrying you to your room. Itâs time.â
I dropped him on his bed and turned out the light. When I got to his door, he said, âDid you know aphids can have babies thirty times in one summer?â
âGood night, Jason,â I said.
âI saw you on TV this afternoon.â
I flipped back on the light. âYou and everyone else.â I sat on his bed and told him what had happened at the church, told him how sad it was when such things happened, reassured him that he was safe. He took it all in and his eyes said he understood it the way I would have hoped.
I flipped off his light and said good night again. When I reached his door, he said, âJoe?â
âYes?â
âCan I ask you a question?â
âAnytime.â
âWhy did you ram those news vans?â
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I ROLLED AROUND IN bed, sleepless. When I closed my eyes, I saw Greg Samuelson, bloodier than a dead man, stretched across Judy Terranoâs desk, a gun inches from his fingers. I saw Judy Terrano stretched across the floor, a big black cat tattooed on