intention.
“That won’t change when Mykelti dies, buddy.” Daegan had purposefully used the word when since Gunny would eventually go after the man responsible for killing Sidney. That was a fact that not even Starr could change. “Do you know why?”
“Don’t—”
Daegan held up a hand and shook his head, not wanting to hear any more of what his supervisor had to say. Gunny didn’t need to make excuses. This was his current path and it just happened to dredge up Daegan’s past. He was an adult. He knew exactly what this man standing in front of him felt because he suffered the same fucking way, but he sure as hell wouldn’t stand here and placate him. Daegan would tell him the goddamn truth.
“Nothing changes because the one thing that has kept you alive, allowing you to wake up every morning and face another day, is gone…just like Sidney.”
Daegan needed some air. He set his cup down and left the room without a backward glance. He maneuvered the passageways until he was twenty feet from the ladderwell and the subsequent hatch that led to the weather deck. He came up short when he spotted Ferrin. His blood was running hot and he wasn’t thinking as clearly as he should be, but it didn’t stop him from doing what came naturally. He had her soft body against the bulkhead before she could once again pretend he wasn’t there like she’d done so many times over the last few months. He damn well was and he needed to prove it himself.
Daegan claimed her mouth, sliding his fingers into the smooth twist of her hair. She felt so damn good, reminding him that they were both here…both alive. Using his thumbs to keep her chin tilted up to meet his, he drank his fill. The mint flavor that was on her tongue invaded his senses and he wanted more. Her slight vanilla fragrance that always seemed to cling to her enveloped him as he deepened their kiss. Her small hands rested against his shoulder, not pushing or pulling him in either direction as he melded his body against hers. It was as if she didn’t know what to make of this and she was afraid to want more. He slowly pulled away, both of them breathing hard. When he set his gaze on her, her grey eyes were as dark as any storm he’d ever witnessed at sea. Before she had a chance to unleash her fury, he did his best to dissipate any crashing cold front.
“I’ve changed my mind, Ferrin,” Daegan murmured as he stepped away. He tucked one of the now loose strands of her chestnut hair behind her ear. “I’m giving you fair warning. I still want you.”
Chapter Four
‡
O ne week had passed without Ferrin seeing Daegan after that pulse raising and provocative exchange in the passageway. She wasn’t sure if she should feel relieved or worried. He’d caught her so unaware that she had been helpless to stop the tidal wave of arousal that he’d instigated when his warm lips had captured hers. He’d even given her fair warning, but it was as if he was intentionally staying far away from her since his startling pronouncement that a détente was no long an option.
“Ferrin?”
She looked up from the clipboard in her hand to find Roger Edelton giving her an inquisitive look. She’d given him the pass down of the night, letting him know what issues had taken place and what radios were operable, assigned to specific nets, and their key requirements. In addition to the nets that the COC were utilizing there were radio channels assigned to bridge operations and navigation emergency frequencies that required constant monitoring on guard selection. Beyond the functional assets, there were also a number of radios that had operational problems that the S-6 radio maintenance technicians needed to address in the near term.
Roger operated the dayshift, which would be a hell of a lot busier in terms of operational requirements while they were still en route to the Area of Operational Responsibility (AOR). Once they arrived at their destination she was fairly certain that