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not sure how long we lay as still as possible, listening to the sound of each other's slumber charade. But I wondered if he felt what I felt; Caleb using my kidney for soccer practice.
    "Will you stop fidgeting?!"
    Well, that answered my question. "I can't."
    "Why the hell not?"
    "Because it's the baby."
    He rolled over, and for the first time in months it wasn't anger I saw in his eyes. "Fay." I didn't know it was possible for a whisper to tremble until then. "This is really happening, isn't it?"
    I wanted to hit him. If it wasn't for the raw fear in his eyes, I think I might have.
    He said, "I go to bed each night and I hope when I wake up, it’s just you and me, planning the lavish wedding we wanted, going on all those trips we were going to take. Canada, Mexico, Europe. Every thing's gone so far off course from the life we wanted."
    I’d had no idea he was so unhappy. There'd been no windows into his soul until now. I did the only thing I thought was right. "Cal, I can't bear to see you this unhappy." I reached out in the darkness. My hand caressed the sharpened edge of his stubble lined jaw. “It’s alright if you want to leave.” He gasped. It wasn’t okay if he left me. I had no idea what I’d do. How I’d manage without him or how the practice would manage without him. But I had to let him go, didn’t I? “I know you didn’t want any of this. I’ll take care of the children, I promise, and you can see them whenever you want. Cal, I just want you to be happy again."
    “Oh, Fay,” he whispered, shuffling closer. He mumbled my name several more times as he nuzzled into my neck. He held me so close. It was the first intimate contact we’d had since Thanksgiving, and it broke my heart because it felt like goodbye. "A man would be crazy to give up someone as goddamn adorable as you."
    He placed his lips on mine before he pulled away. "I don’t deserve you." His hand drew down the length of my face as he cupped my cheek. “Have you looked under your pillow at all?”
    My hand slipped under the cotton and touched a long thin velvet case. “Oh, Cal.” I lifted my head and pulled the jewelry box from its hiding place. “I’ve been cursing you all day.”
    “I know, but you’ve been busy.” His hand twisted in my hair for a few moments, then drifted over my shoulder. “You’ve had Georgia’s party to arrange. Can’t imagine it was easy considering... I could have done more to help.”
    No, he’d done so much by keeping Georgia and the other toddlers entertained and from under my feet. Wait a minute… was he acknowledging the...? He was! This was big. I didn’t know what to say.
    Again he shuffled closer until his body was flush with my side and nuzzled against my ear. “It’ll still be there in the morning.” And then he kissed me. I mean, he really kissed me! Like a solider returning from a six month operational tour might kiss his wife for the first time.
    His hand came to a stop where Caleb kicked. “I think we’re having a boy,” Cal whispered. “Georgia was never like this.” Caleb settled. It was as though even he knew something monumental had just happened.
     

 
     
     
     
     
    Chapter Nine
     
    His eyes have always been a gateway to Caleb’s soul, even at just a few months old. They’d go the slightest shade of grey and I’d know he was about to cry. They’d sparkle like the Atlantic on a hot summer day when a smile lit up his face. He was such a charmer with the older ladies and broke so many hearts back then.
    Both you and Georgia adored him. You couldn’t do enough to help. We had to get Georgia a little baby of her own. Oh, and a stroller she could push too! How she’s turned out to be such a career girl when all she wanted for so many years was to be like her mom, I’ll never know. Although… Mommy, Caleb and D were forgotten once Daddy walked through the door. You know, her first word was “Dada”. I never grew tired of seeing her run to him. That’s the way