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    Ice dream
    Well, it went on for a bit and now I’ve forgotten the rest of it. But it did seem significant that we’d written it that particular day.
    â€œSee?” I said. “How cool am I!”
    â€œI knew you would be,” said Josh. “That’s why I knew I could tell you.”
    Everyone needs someone they can tell things to. Josh had told me he was worried cos he thought he might be gay – but I couldn’t tell Josh that I was worried cos I thought I might be too fat to be a rock star. I was too ashamed. I didn’t have anyone I could tell.
    He said, “Promise me you won’t say anything!” and I gave him my word. I promised him. He had confided in me in strictest secrecy. He had trusted me. And now that hideous hag Marigold had gone and blown it. How had she found out? I hadn’t told a single solitary person. It had nearly killed me keeping it from Indy, cos me and Indy tell each other everything, but I hadn’t even so much as hinted. I wouldn’t do that to Josh!
    My only hope was that everyone would be so busy gabbing about how Marigold had called me a fat freak and I’d called her a moron that they’d forget the wordsshe’d yelled at me as I stalked through the door. Maybe Josh would never get to hear of it.
    But I knew that he would. School is just like a seething cauldron when it comes to gossip.

CHAPTER THREE
    Next day was Wednesday. Only Wednesday! I felt like I had lived through a whole week already. Mum was on early turn. She came breezing into my bedroom while I was still wrapped in the duvet with my eyes gummed shut. She started making noise almost before she even got through the door.
    â€œCAR-MEN!”
    I burrowed deeper down the bed. Mum’s voice goes all shrill when it gets loud. Not what you need, first thing in the morning.
    â€œCarmen, I’m off now. I’ll be back about six. OK?”
    I mumbled into the duvet.
    â€œOK?” shrieked Mum.
    I said, “Yes. OK!”
    â€œRight, well, it’s time you were up. Come on, get moving!”
    Mum tugged at the duvet; I tugged back.
    â€œ CAR-MEN !”
    â€œAll right, all right!” I poked my head out, and forced my eyes open the merest crack. “I’m coming!”
    â€œWell, just see that you are. I’m pulling back the curtains –” Whoosh . Blinding daylight. I quickly screwed my eyes tight shut again. Why did she have to be so brutal? “You’ve got twenty minutes to get yourself up and out!”
    â€œYeah, yeah.” Just go away .
    â€œI’ll see you tonight.”
    Yeah. See you tonight. Now go .
    She went. I heard her footsteps down the hall; I heard the front door open and bang shut behind her. Within seconds, I had gone back to sleep.
    If the telephone hadn’t rung, I might have gone on sleeping all day. As it was, it was almost two o’clock. I couldn’t believe it! Two o’clock . I had been asleep the entire morning.
    The telephone went on ringing. I jumped out of bed and went into the hall to look at it, while I decided what to do. To answer or not to answer? Not . I didn’t want to speak to anyone. But it kept on ringing, like it was determined to get some sort of response, so in the end I gave in and picked it up – and immediately wished I hadn’t cos it was Indy again. Indy was one of the last people I wanted to speak to.
    â€œ Carm? ” I held the receiver away from my ear. If Mum’s voice goes shrill, Indy’s goes all high-pitched and squealy, like a car alarm. “Carm, what’s happening? Why aren’t you in school?”
    Rather sourly I said, “Still gotta headache.”
    â€œ Still? ”
    I said, “Yeah. Why aren’t you in class?”
    â€œI’m going. I just wanted to speak to you – I’ve borrowed Connie’s phone. Carm…”
    â€œWhat?”
    â€œYou know you said not to tell Josh? Well… I