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Is that what you’ve got to say, like some goddamned adolescent caught two-timing his steady?”
    â€œI’m sorry. God, I’m sorry. But really, that’s all she is to me.”
    â€œSam, that’s so shabby. So fucking banal.”
    â€œSo maybe I’m banal. I’m sorry about that too.”
    He was working up anger now, preferring it to guilt. The hell with him. He wasn’t fooling her.
    â€œHow long you two been being banal together?” she asked.
    â€œThis isn’t an ongoing relationship,” he said. “Something happened one time. Only one. Damn it, Allie, I wish it hadn’t happened. I sure didn’t plan it. Neither did she.”
    â€œGod’s plan, huh?” she said bitterly.
    â€œMore like the devil’s,” Sam said. “A moment of weakness on my part, and it led to something. I thought that kinda thing only happened to the clowns on soap operas, but I was wrong.”
    She said, “I don’t believe things like that just happen, Sam.”
    â€œBut they do. Then the people involved regret it but can’t change the past. Please, Allie, try to understand this. Try not to be—”
    â€œTry not to be what?” she interrupted.
    â€œI dunno. Naive, I guess.”
    She sat up, and switched on the lamp by the bed. Sam twisted his head away from the light, shielding his eyes, as if he might decompose under the glare like Dracula caught in the sun. Allie knew it was the truth that was making him come apart.
    â€œYou have to do that?” he asked. “Turn on that damned light?”
    â€œWhat do you mean by naive? That I trusted you?”
    Now he did roll onto his side to face her, his head resting on his upper arm so that his cheek was scrunched up. His eyes were still narrowed to the light. “No. But I don’t want you to think an accidental affair with another woman means anything important.” He scooted toward her, touched her hip gently with his fingertips, making her suddenly aware and ashamed of her nakedness. She pulled away violently, startling him. “Allie, please!”
    Allie kept her distance. “She said on the phone she thinks you’re married. Talks as if you lied to her, led her to believe she was the only one in your life. The way you’ve been lying to me.”
    â€œThe point is, it doesn’t matter a gnat’s ass to me what she thinks.”
    â€œSure, I can believe that.”
    â€œOh, c’mon, Allie. You’re mad right now, not thinking straight. Not putting this in perspective. And I don’t blame you. But it was a onetime affair of the glands, not the heart. And it’s over, I swear it! It meant no more than a shared dance that can never happen again.”
    â€œLisa would disagree with you, I bet.”
    â€œMaybe. But so what? I only care what you think, Allie. That’s all that’s important to me in this crazy world. Honestly. You believe me, don’t you?”
    â€œNo.”
    He made a sound almost like a moan. “I don’t know what I can do about that. I only wish I could do something to make you see the facts. The Lisa thing just sort of happened and then ran its course and no longer matters. Please, Allie, accept that as the truth, because it is.”
    â€œYou’re not denying it, only repeating that it doesn’t matter.”
    â€œI don’t like lying to you. Never did. I admitted I slept with Lisa Calhoun. If you need to hear it again, I’ll admit it again. I can’t see why you don’t realize the rest of what I’m saying’s true.”
    â€œI don’t need to hear it, Sam. Not anymore.”
    â€œWell, yeah, I guess not. Allie?”
    She knew his wheedling, little-boy voice. Right now it sickened her. Sam was about to ask her forgiveness. She couldn’t handle that. She reached out an arm and hurriedly switched off the lamp.
    â€œThat’s better, Allie.” He’d