said, care for a drink?â
Iâm spacing out, and surprised to see that my trickâs still there. I finally get a good look at him. Heâs pretty cute, with just enough hair to still be sexy for a thirty-something, but Iâm not going to let him get me that easily.
âNo thanks, Iâm still working on my iced tea.â
âYou have a great ass. Mind if I touch it?â
âYou canât afford it.â
I jump off the stage. The other clubbers have cleared a space
around us.
âHereâs a hundred bucks,â he says.
âWhat the fuck for?â
âFor nothing ... For being sexy. Well, actually, if Iâm giving you a hundred, I want you to use my name. Itâs Jason.â
âHi Paul.â
Tricks like it when you fuck with them like that. I give him my tough punk look, my raised eyebrow and lip sneer, and take the money.
âItâs only half of the two hundred I won in a bet that I couldnât get you off the stage. I donât mind losing it.â
I was obviously dealing with a professional. But a professional what ?
Paul points to his friends drooling at the bar. Theyâre getting me more drinks, I can tell by the parade of rainbow-colored cocktail umbrellas.
Iâm getting woozy. I hold my glass up to the strobe lights and swish it around. It splashes in arrested clicks of time, but I canât see anything suspicious dissolving on the bottom.
âI might be able to give you the other hundred,â he says, chewing his liquor. âWhat do you do?â
That question.
âIâm a writer.â
âPerrrfect. I happen to be doing a photographic project on New York writers in the nude.â
I love seeing the flicker of a lie in a trickâs eyes. It makes me pre-cum.
We leave Jackie 60, I sit my ass down in the taxi, and weâre off.
Stuff I just happen to come across:
Snot wads frozen into gumdrops on the sidewalk in winter, rats speared by syringes, Lego revolvers, hair-weave tumbleweed, congealed balls of motor oil, barely recognizable people lost in building cracks, doggie mud pies you find by surprise when the snow melts, ants swarming popsicle sticks in summer.
While we crossed the bridge to Williamsburg, an industrial-cumhipster Brooklyn neighborhood, I sat alone in the back seat of the cab, chauffeured. Paul told me that it was good we were both artists because artists could feed off each other.
Did he honestly think I was falling for his crap?
The elevator doors opened to his loft and he flipped a set of switches. On came the lights and The Verveâs âBittersweet Symphony,â and the blinds retracted to give a twinkling view of the Manhattan skyline.
Living pretty large for an artist, he was.
âGet comfortable.â
I pulled my notebook out of my back pocket and laid it on the giant Lego coffee table, then flopped into a La-Z-Boy chair and put my feet up.
âI mean take off your clothes.â
âHow much are you paying me?â
âTwo hundred. These shots might not even get printed. Iâm only doing it to keep my camera from rusting.â
âThree hundred or I walk.â
âHave fun walking over the bridge. Two hundred.â
âAnd fifty.â
âTwo hundred. If I give you an extra fifty, itâll be a tip because I like you.â
I wasnât sure if I was going to be able to take control, so far from the street, so far from my comfort zone. He loaded film into his camera and tossed the empty plastic canister like a peanut shell. I shucked my jeans.
âTell me about your writing.â
âIt would go over your head.â
âI like it when youâre saucy. Give your cock a squeeze. Make it purple and angry for me ... Riiiiiiight.â
Click, flash, and that electronic camera whirrrr .
âNow give me a sad face ... Sadder. Think about your mother dying. Your cat chasing a moth into the fireplace. Photography is about emotion.
Benjamin Blech, Roy Doliner