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the bubbles in his beer glass. Cooper was chewing ice from his mineral water. Kyle had barely touched his beer.
    “I fell asleep on the way home and crashed the car. She died there, Kyle. Died in my arms.”
    It was the same every time he told the story. His eyes would ache something fierce, but the tears wouldn’t come until he closed his eyes. And it was usually when he was trying to sleep.
    “I’m real sorry to hear it, Luke. I didn’t have any clue that was your story. So what’s going on now?”
    “I thought the transfer would help. My sister lives in San Diego, sir. I seemed to be doing pretty good,” Luke continued.
    “I had no complaints. You did your job, from what I could tell.” Kyle sighed. “So, this woman you’re dreaming about, the one with the red lips?”
    “It’s not her. But the red is significant.”
    “Go on.”
    “I don’t know who the woman was. She wasn’t my, my—the girl I was going to marry.”
    “Say her name.”
    “Camilla.”
    “Okay, good.”
    “I—well, until last night as a matter of fact—I’d never seen her face. I just used to dream about the red lips. I was dozing off, dreaming that dream, when young Carson got hit. You remember?”
    “Yes, two days before we came home.”
    “Yes. Well, the lack of sleep was catching up to me. He let me take a little catnap, and that’s when he was hit.”
    “And you took out the bad guy.”
    “That I did. Without thinking, I did it. I can live with that part.”
    “Good.”
    “He died in my arms, just like she—Camilla—did. Just like her. I felt the blood, saw him pass over. I was there. Nothing I could do to stop it. I just witnessed it. And I was numb at the time, but now I have the nightmares, Kyle. I’m not sleeping more than an hour here and there.”
    “And what does it add up to?”
    “At the most, maybe four hours’ sleep.”
    “And that’s not enough. You try using some meds?”
    “No.”
    “I’d get you some, Luke. You’ve got to get your sleep.”
    “But now it’s more than sleep. It’s mood swings. I can be so incredibly happy one minute, and the next, I’m like in the pits of Hell itself.”
    “When are you up for extension?” Kyle asked.
    “Eighteen months. Was going to re-up when I went over the next time, but now I’m wondering if I should sit out a cycle.”
    “You get to a doctor, first. You know we’ve just started those groups. Don’t want you with the inactives. You stay with the active duty SEALs.”
    “I understand.” He took the last sip of his beer. “Do you think I should wait out a rotation?”
    “It’s not for me to say. You’re telling me all this…which is the right thing to do, by the way…so thank you for being proactive. We like that. But I’ve not seen anything to indicate you’re not able to perform your duties. So we get you checked out. We do some PT evaluation. Your eyesight and hearing okay?”
    “I’m fine in that department.”
    “You getting fucked regular, like?”
    Luke wasn’t quite sure he’d heard Kyle correctly.
    “Sir?”
    “Any things going on in your sex life you’re not happy with? I gotta ask.”
    “No. Nothing’s wrong, sir. Except—”
    “What?”
    “I feel a little too needy about it.” He’d never admitted it to himself. Was this what was scaring him?
    “Shit, Luke,” Cooper interjected. “That’s just normal. We all got it.”
    “I don’t want to hurt anyone,” Luke replied.
    “Then you get someone strong.”
    Luke promised Kyle he’d check himself in for a complete workup, including a psych evaluation. He got medication to help him sleep, and he began feeling better after a solid month of ten-hour nights. He stayed away from dating. He stayed away from complicated.
    But he thought about Julie every day. She was the first thing he pictured in the morning, how she’d looked that sunny morning in the motel room. And she was the last thing he saw at night before the medication kicked in.
    “ I don’t do