her next step, then her next, then her next, she plodded on. If it had been just her legs that hurtâbut it was more. Every inward fiber of her ached. Mother. Dead. While those who had killed her still lived. And it was even more than that. Thereâs something wrong with me. Rowanâs heart felt like a black hollow of misery.
Her toe caught onânothing at all, nothing but flat grassy groundâand she fell sprawling, facedown, her breath knocked out.
Biting her lip to keep from crying like an overgrown baby, Rowan lay still for a moment too long. Before she could struggle to her feet, strong arms lifted her up, but did not set her on her feet. The big lummox was carrying her again.
âLionel,â ordered Rowan wearily, âput me down.â
Without a word he strode onward, cradling her in his arms. Without a word Rook trotted by Lionelâs left elbow, and Etty by his right. Tykell swished away into the brush on some errand of his own.
âI can walk,â Rowan insisted.
âBut I beg to differ. Itâs quite evident that you canât,â said Lionel with none of his usual petulance. His low voice sounded almost grim. âWhatâs wrong, Rowan?â
âI ...â She had to close her eyes. âI donât know.â
âBut you must have some idea,â he said, annoying as usual again, âmy dear little girlââ
A blaze of anger jolted Rowan with welcome strength. She squirmed, trying to free herself from Lionelâs arms; he was forced to slow down a bit to keep hold of her. âIf you ever call me âdear little girlâ again,â she told him between clenched teeth, âI will shave every curly hair off your parlous fat head with Ettyâs sword.â
With an odd catch in his voice, Lionel told her, âMay that day come soon. My dear little girl.â
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Rowan lost track of the passing of time. Joggling along in Lionelâs giant grip made her feel dizzy. She closed her eyes again and kept them closed. Perhaps she slept. When she opened her eyes again and looked around, day had moved on toward late afternoon, and Rowan recognized the familiar slope down which Lionel was carrying her. They were entering the hollow folk called Robin Hoodâs Dell.
âWhat are we going here for?â Rowan demanded.
âFor my hands to cramp and my arms to ache from hauling you,â Lionel retorted in his best babyish whine, although he strode along as easily as ever.
âNo, I mean, why here?â This time it was strength of panic that helped Rowan wriggle in his grip, almost sitting up straight.
âHold still,â Lionel complained. âWhat are you trying to do, pull my shoulders entirely out of their sockets?â
Ettyâs voice floated to Rowan. âWeâre going here to meet Beau, Ro. So that she could hide Dove entirely, do you see? Very cleverââ
But Rowan barely heard, struggling wildly against Lionelâs grip. âPut me down!â
âBut, my dear Rowanââ Lionel sounded not peevish at all, only puzzled. And upset.
The big, stupid oaf. Rowan flared at him, âWhat if my father is here?â At the bottom of this hollow, in a clearing created by its own great expanse of branches, stood Robin Hoodâs giant oak tree. His favorite hideout. If he had happened to choose to spend this night here ... âI donât want him to see me like this! Put me down!â
Oddly silent now, Lionel stopped and set her on her feet. Feeling a bit light-headedâperhaps because she hadnât eaten today, Rowan told herselfâshe stood blinking for a moment. But she saw the troubled looks Etty and Rook and Lionel exchanged.
Rook, straightforward as usual, spoke. âWouldnât you know if Robin were here?â
âIââ Rowan shook her head, turned away. âJust let me alone,â she mumbled, stumbling downhill toward the clearing.
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