bitch.â
âGirl, no worries. You know I stopped calling you about dumb shit like that years ago. This is on some other shitâmore serious shit. But, like I said, we canât have this conversation over the phone. The minute you get home, you have to call me.â
âI will. But I donât know how you expect me to go another day and not know what the hell is going on. What can be so bad that you canât tell me over the phone? You said itâs not about any of Jasperâs bitches. And, obviously his ass isnât locked up since I spoke to him earlier. Is it about Stax or your brother Sparks?â
âNo. Stax and Sparks are fine, girl. No oneâs locked up. Yet, anyway.â
I catch the yet part, knowingly. All them niggas riding Jasperâs nut sac are caught up in the game one way or another. His whole street team is mostly the niggas in his family. Itâs like them niggas were all born into it. And itâs only a matter of time before someone gets knocked, again. I wonder if Stax would take the weight for Jasperâs ass if they got popped. I hope he wouldnât. But I donât ever see him snitching either. Then again, who knows what a nigga looking at football numbers will do.
Anyway, Stax is another one of Jasperâs cousins. Heâs also Jasperâs right-hand man. You see one; youâre bound to see the other, partners in crime. They say birds of a feather flock together. But, unlike Jasperâs messy, cheating-ass, Iâve never heard Stax getting caught up in any female drama, even when he was with his babyâs mother, Mariah. If Stax is out there doing dirt, youâd never know it. Obviously, he knows how to move. Something Jasperâs sloppy-ass needs to do better at. Jasper would fuck a bitch right up in our bedâif he hasnât alreadyâthen try to lie his way out of it once he got caught pulling his dick out of her.
But, whatever! Back to Stax. Although Iâve never looked at hischiseled six-foot-six, fine, milk-chocolate-ass sexually, thereâs something about the way he looks at me with those beautiful sparkling brown eyes of his that unnerves me.
Iâve never been one to get caught up in gossip. However, word among the nut-hungry hoes is that he has a big-ass dick and a set of big, juicy, plum-size balls hanging real low with it. And, shamefully, over the years of knowing Stax, Iâve occasionally had to fight myself to keep from sneaking peeks at his crotch, especially when he wears sweats. And, well, the few times Iâve slipped, I always caught a glimpse of a thick, long lump in his pants. So I believe the rumors are true.
But thatâs neither here nor there, since I donât want him. Every time I see him, knowing that heâs Jasperâs right-hand nigga, I canât stop thinking, wondering, if somehow he was one of the niggas who was down in the basement with me, shoving his dick down in my throat. Although none of them that I can recall had his gym-ripped body, or a tattoo of their daughter on their forearm. Still, I wonder.
And the fact that Stax does his best to avoid me, and only comes around me when heâs with Japser, makes him suspect. Makes me wonder how much of what went down with my kidnapping he played a hand in. I know he knows all about the dick-sucking rampage I was on. Jasper tells him everything.
Still, regardless of what he knows or whether or not he was down in that basement, heâs never treated me indifferently or looked at me with disgust in his eyes. Nevertheless, I search my brain, replaying the horrible scenes in my head over and over, trying to see if any of those eyes peering through the slits of those black ski masks belonged to him.
I always come up blank.
Six
The way to perdition requires traveling a long, dirty, ruthless roadâ¦
âY o, Pasha, real shit,â Jasper says, grabbing me by the arm as Iâm walking out of Jaylenâs bedroom.