proxy. A slightly misplaced symbol, maybeâthe gaiety, the livelinessâbut never mind.
Do not forsake me oh my darling .
The sergeant checks the computer for anybody of my description recently fed into it. We watch without speaking. I realize Iâm drumming my fingers on the table by my chair.
The computer gives us nothing.
âOkay, then,â says the sergeant. âThe card index at the Yard. Iâll phone and have them do a run-through.â He hesitates; itâs as though heâs apologizing in advance. âYou see, Tex, missing persons only get priority if itâs known they may be ill or vulnerable in some wayâ¦people can go walkabout for weeks. Or months.â He shrugs and looks to Tom, wryly, for confirmation. âYears.â
But Iâm the one who answers.
âVulnerable? I suppose mere amnesia doesnât count, then?â
The sergeant says, âYet who would know youâve got it? Apart from us?â
âI canât remember.â This is intended to sound as bitter as some of my remarks earlier on, but they think Iâm being funnyâand reluctantly I also end up smiling. âNaturally you mean apart from us, a textiles company, a fashion school, a barbershop, a sandwich bar and the receptionist working late at the dental practice opposite.â
âOpposite?â
âOpposite Tomâs office.â
Tom, once more, explains all this. âWe were trying to discover what Tex was doing in Foley Street.â
âA dentist, for Godâs sake?â says the sergeant, as if a fashion school were quite to be expected.
âWe guessed he hadnât just received treatment; but it could have been a checkup.â
âAmericans on holiday have checkups?â
âHow can we even feel certain Tex is on holiday? He might be working over here. And yes, before you say it, the embassy is most definitely one of our next ports of call.â
âOh, heâs incredibly thorough, your friend Tom.â For the second time I think I intend only irony, but thereâs a trace of pride there too. âWe even went into a pub, several shops, whatever offices were still open, a café, a Spanish restaurantâ¦â
âOkay! Okay! Stop!â The sergeant holds up his palms as if to ward off blows. âIâm convinced of it. Half of London knows youâve got amnesia. But that still hasnât got you onto the computer. Not yet, at any rate.â
âAnd I donât understand it. If Iâve left my jacket behind, along with my passport and all my money and travellerâs cheques, wouldnât my wife, or my parents, or others on the same tourâI mean, if I am on vacationâwouldnât someone have realized by now that somethingâs wrong?â
But nothing can alter the fact I donât appear on that damned computer.
Nor in that damned card index at the Yard. (The sergeantâs call had been speedily returned.)
He tips back in his seat. âDonât worry, though. Iâll keep my eyes peeled for anything that comes in.â
Tom produces the picture he took earlierâ¦âin case you canât get hold of us andâwith any luckâare called on to put someone out of their suspense. We shanât be at the office; a message at home will probably reach us faster.â He jots down details to do with nationality and appearance. âHow are Bridget and the girls?â
âBridget will want to know when youâre next coming to supper.â
The sergeant shakes my hand again.
âRelax, Tex. Think how in time youâll laugh at all of this and even see it had a purposeâthatâs what my granny used to say.â
Itâs rather a sweet thought: great big Sergeant Payne learning at his wise old grannyâs knee.
On the sidewalk Tom takes more photos.
âBut why? You say that, anyway, all the hotels and boarding houses would get in touch with the