blind eye to a cop who is breaking the law. In my gut, I’ve known that
he has been hurting Kerrigan. I just couldn’t prove it. Right now, all I know
is, if Aaron walks because of his connections, I will put a bullet through his
brain after I break each of his fingers.
Kerrigan seems to think Aaron knows her exact moves. At
first, I thought it was paranoia, but as I watched her get into the cab, I felt
like she was telling the truth. I didn’t see anyone, but I felt it. After I
left, I started to worry because I left Molly alone. Later I called to
apologize. Of course, Molly forgave me. She is just what my brothers and I
needed in our life. She is a smartass and puts us all in our place when we need
it. I’m happy for Noah. I knew he’d end up with Molly. We went to Evan’s the
other day to watch a Bears game. Instead, I found myself watching Noah and his
son, Landon. My nephew has a foul temper. It was comical watching Noah warm the
breast milk. He was cursing the water for not warming fast enough. Evan laid
into him with the jokes. I picked Landon up to try and comfort him. Talk about
weird. I’ve never loved anyone the way I love Landon. No expectations, just
pure love. Noah says it all the time; he is a lucky man. I agree. I’m envious
of the life he has.
Kerrigan
Later that week, I pack up what I can. I don’t take
everything because I know Aaron will suspect something when he comes home. I
have no idea where I am going or what I am doing. I wish I could leave right
this moment. Aaron is working the night shift so I’m home alone. I can’t leave
now, though, because he does drive-byes. The last thing I need is for him to
catch me in the process. I will wait until tomorrow when he is asleep. I decide
to head to bed because I need to be rested. When my feet hit the ground
tomorrow, I am running. Running for my life. I will not stop. Where my feet
will take me, I don’t know. I do know it won’t be here. For now, that’s what I
cling to. A small shred of hope.
I wake up when the sun shines through the curtains. It’s
Freedom Day, but when I go to move my arm, I can’t. What the hell? I try
sitting up but fail. Oh my GOD! Aaron has handcuffed me to the bed. How did he
find out? A sinking feeling hits my stomach. It’s Freedom Day all right.
Eternity freedom. Oddly, in this moment, I can think clearly. Whatever happens
today, it’s my last day with the devil.
“Want to tell me what your plan is, Kerrigan?” Aaron slurs.
He reeks of alcohol. I decide in this moment I’m not playing nice today. I'm no
longer afraid.
“My plan is that today is our last day together. I should’ve
left you months ago.” I think my self-control confuses him. Aaron has not heard
back talk in months.
“Where do you think you’re going to go? No one wants you,
remember?”
“I don’t need anyone to want me, Aaron. I don’t need you. I
do have friends. Molly and Maddox will help me.”
“We will see about that. I guess you don’t care if Maddox’s
blood is on your hands.” I turn my head. “Look at me you stupid bitch. LOOK!”
Aaron grabs my chin and forces my face upward. He will not control me any
longer. I close my eyes. It’s probably a mistake, but I have to for what self-respect
I have left. When I die, Aaron will not be the image I see. It will be Maddox.
Yes, Maddox hurt me in another way. He’s also remorseful. At first, I didn’t
believe it, but as time went on and the apologies continued, I realized Maddox
was torturing himself. Time and time again, I’ve wanted to reach out to him,
but I couldn’t. Maddox has the perfect life, the perfect family. I know now
that Aaron is all threats. I’m sure he won’t touch Maddox because Maddox is
fast, smart, and on to Aaron.
“You thinking about Maddox again, HUH?”
“Yes,” and with that my day with the devil begins.
Maddox
I just got out of a meeting with Chief Garcia. He’s a good
guy who follows the law. He asked that he talk to Aaron on