lifted the cap so he could see her face. She wore a pained expression that worried him.
She continued, “What happened in Japan is going to bother me for a long time. Not just what happened with Karla but everything. When I was in MOIS , I never questioned my mission. I never worried if I had to take a life. I had no choice. But this, this is different. We're the judge, jury, and executioner, and I'm not sure that's right.”
“We’re not soldiers, Saneh. We shoulder the burden of decision as well as execution. It’s not a light load to carry.”
“Sometimes I think it’s too much.”
“You’re probably right but if we don’t do our job then who will?”
“Is it worth it?”
“I think so. We're only one pin prick of light in a world of darkness, but we make a real difference.”
“I just worry that darkness will consume us, or maybe it already has.”
Bishop gazed out at the ocean. “In Japan I was forced to make a decision. I chose your life over someone else's. It's a decision I've replayed in my mind hundreds of times. Do I wish I was never put in that position? Yes. Can I change what happened? No. If I had to do it again I would make the same decision.”
She looked at him intently. “Would you have done the same for anyone else on the team?”
“In an instant. Because this team is my family.”
“So, your decision had nothing to do with... us?”
Bishop nodded. “At that moment it didn’t. It was a tactical decision made in the heat of the moment. My feelings for you are strong, but they didn't cost Karla her life. Her actions did.”
She was silent.
“I'm the first to admit I was too harsh on Kurtz.”
“Harsh? He already had post-traumatic stress and then you shot a teenage girl right in front of him. You've got to have a little more empathy sometimes. He was on your team. You had a responsibility to make sure he was OK.”
He stared out to sea and swallowed hard. “I know.”
She touched his arm. “I'm sorry.”
He blinked off tears and glanced at her. “It's OK.”
“We all make mistakes. It's what we learn from them that defines us.”
They watched the waves crash on the sands for a minute. Then he broke the silence. “We should head back.” He rolled up his yoga mat and waited for Saneh to do the same. “Thanks,” he said as they walked back to the airport fence.
“For what?”
“For listening.” He lifted the bottom of the perimeter fence and she shimmied under. “I wonder if Aleks is getting close to finding Kurtz.”
“If anyone can find him it’s Aleks. He knew him the best.”
He crawled through after her and they walked toward the hangar. “I feel a bit sorry for the rest of the CAT.” Bishop referred to the Critical Assault Team, PRIMAL’s high-risk combat squad.
“Why is that?”
“Because with Aleks gone, Kruger is in charge and that guy lives by the ethos ‘train hard, fight easy’.”
She smiled. “I’m sure the boys are having a great time.”
***
NEW YORK CITY
The boardroom of Manhattan Ventures Investments was an elaborately furnished space on the 34 th floor of a skyscraper in Lower Manhattan. Floor to roof glass windows ran down one side giving the occupants a sweeping view of the Brooklyn and Manhattan bridges.
Jordan Pollard, the Chairman, sat at the head of a polished mahogany table with a scowl on his hawkish features. “I want the Mexican government to bleed for this. I want to sue them for every single dollar we can get. We were assured a safe and cooperative mining environment not a goddamn revolution.” He eyeballed each person at the table.
The three directors of MVI were present: Charles King, also the CEO of Ground Effects Services, Ian Macmillan, the company’s Chief Financial Officer, and Wesley Chambers, a former investment banker responsible for raising capital. A fourth person, a female lawyer, had also been invited to the meeting.
“Ian, what has this cost us?”
The CFO adjusted his