that.
âThereâll be a pile of snow in the morning,â Shutzey remarked. Then he looked at his hand, wiped it impatiently on his coat, and drew on a pair of yellow pigskin gloves.
âTo cover the dirt,â the priest said.
âIf yu look that way, Jack.â
âI look straight ahead.â
âAwrightâif yu can. Funny though, I like tu stand in the snow like this, stand and feel cold air. Now what the hellâs got me, huh?â
âYou tell me, Shutzey.â
âAhdunno.â
âYouâre not afraidâ?â
Laughing, Shutzey blew out smoke, while frost from his nostrils steamed over his collar. Behind the glow of his cigar, the hard blue outlines of his face stood sharp.
âListen,â he said. âI ainât afraid, Jack; I ainât cut that way. Iâm in a tough racket, anâ I donât pack no gat. Awâwot the hellââ
âWhatâs eating you?â
âLet it ride. You donât gimme no religion.â
âNoâyouâre a Godless man, Shutzey, and a bad one. But I like you.â
âWhy? You goinâ tu reform me?â Shutzey grinned.
âNoââ
âMaybe Iâm all bad. All of anythingâs nice tu know.â
âNo.â
âYer a godamn funny priest. Maybe all yer life without a piece. How the hell do yu do it?â
âLike standing in the snowââ
âAwrightâI got enough. You go in anâ see the girls, Jack. They been asking about you. Only remember theyâre whores. Yu canât make a nun outa whores.â Shutzey grinned and walked away. He walked like the priest, strong legs and solid on the ground.
I F THE night, the twilight and the snow, had made something of other men, then Shutzey saw it, too. There is a mystery in New York, and no two nights are ever the same.
He walked aimlessly toward the corner, and out of habit he went into Meyerâs cigar store. Meyer wasnât there, but the girl was behind the counter, and when Shutzey came in, she stared at him in a way that he understood.
Then, strangely, his thoughts took an abrupt turn to the priest, and he was saying to himself, âGeesus, Jack, how the hell do yu do it?â
There was once another girl, and they both wanted her. She was eleven years old, dark, and really very beautiful; but where Jack worshiped her, Shutzey knew his way around. That was a long time back, but now Shutzey thought of it.
Shutzey knew what cellars were for. One day, in Heckelâs Stationery Storeâthis long time backâhe bought a ring for ten cents. He asked her to walk, and they walked all the way to the river and back.
âWid me,â Shutzey had told her, âyou donât gotta be afraid.â
âI ainât.â Her name was Alice, and if it was not forgotten, perhaps Shutzey still thought of it as a beautiful name, if he thought of the name in that way at all.
âI kin lick anything.â
âYeah?â
âYeah. âAtâs why yu kin walk wid meâwherever yu wanna.â
âYeah.â
âIâm pretty strong, ainât I?â
âYeah.â
âFeel âat.â
âItâs hard, ainât it?â she said.
âYeah, lemme feel yu muscle.â
âNoââ
âYu lemme take yu someplace, anâ Iâll show yu sumpen.â
âWhere?â
When he led her to the cellar, she smiled at him in a curiously knowing way, but shook her head. Thinking of it now, Shutzey smiled; the girl behind the cigar counter thought he was smiling at her, and she smiled back at him. But the past still lingered, and staring at the girl behind the counter, Shutzey said: âGimme La Primadora, dime size.â
He remembered that finally he had lost his temper, grabbed her by the back of the neck, and said: âGod dammit, Iâll show yu,â and even then she wasnât afraid. She only looked at him,