Well . . . pretty straightforward so far, wouldnât you say? a) Heâs off his trolley and b) he smelled a rat. He wasnât fooled . . . He told us himself in so many words, (
to Matilda
) You heard him, didnât you?
MATILDA Â Â Â What . . .? Yes, but it wasnât what you think.
DOCTOR Â Â Â He responded to our costumes the way a child would.
MATILDA Â Â Â A child? What are you talking about?
DOCTOR Â Â Â On one level. On another itâs more complicated than you can imagine.
MATILDA Â Â Â Not to meâit was plain as day.
DOCTOR Â Â Â To you, perhaps, but we must bear in mind the peculiar psychology of the madâthey can see right through any pretence, while at the same time suspending their disbelief, like children at play believing in their make-believe. Thatâs why I say he is in one sense like a child while in another itâs complicatedâbecause, you see,
his
make-believeâand he is well aware of itâis that he is the image of that image in the picture frame.
BELCREDI Â Â Â He did say that.
DOCTOR Â Â Â There you are. Then what happens?âhis image is joined by other images: us, do you follow me? And withthat shrewd insight of the madman, he immediately spotted the difference between us and him; he spotted the pretence, which made him suspicious. But he kept his suspicions to himself. Thatâs what madmen do. And thatâs all there is to it! Of course, he didnât see that we were doing it all for his sake. What made the game all the more pitiful is that he kept trying, in his coy, obstinate way, to tell us it was only a gameâ
his
gameâhence the makeup and how he only puts it on for fun, and so on.
MATILDA Â Â Â No, you havenât got it.
DOCTOR Â Â Â What do you . . . ?
MATILDA Â Â Â The plain fact is he recognised me.
DOCTOR Â Â Â Thatâs impossible.
BELCREDI Â Â Â (
at the same time
) He couldnât have.
MATILDA Â Â Â Iâm telling you he recognised me. When he looked into my eyes, he knew me.
BELCREDI Â Â Â But he was talking to you about Bertha, your daughter.
MATILDA Â Â Â He was talking about meâme!
BELCREDI Â Â Â Well, yes, he did mention . . .
MATILDA Â Â Â My dyed hair, exactlyâand how quickly he addedâdidnât you notice?ââor dark-haired if you were dark.â He remembered perfectly well that back then my hair was dark.
BELCREDI Â Â Â No, no . . .
MATILDA Â Â Â (
to the Doctor
) My hair is naturally dark, like Fridaâs. Thatâs what got him talking about my daughter.
BELCREDI Â Â Â What daughter? Heâs never seen your daughter.
MATILDA Â Â Â Thatâs my point, you idiotâeverything he said about my pretend daughter
now
, he was saying about me
then
!
BELCREDI Â Â Â Itâs catching!
MATILDA Â Â Â Oh, donât be so stupid.
BELCREDI Â Â Â Excuse me but when were you ever his wife? Heâs got a wifeâin his mad mind sheâs Bertha of Susa and youâre her mother.
MATILDA Â Â Â Iâm not denying that I came to him as Adelaideâbeing blond and not dark anymore, the way he remembered me, I decided to be the mother-in-law. But the daughter doesnât exist for him. Heâs never seen her. He doesnât even know Iâve got a daughterâso how can he know what colour her hair is?
BELCREDI Â Â Â He didnât say he knew. He was just speaking generally . . . Good God, he was only making a point about people colouring their hair to look younger than they areâblondes, brunettes . . . and as usual you go off at a tangent.
MATILDA Â Â Â No . . . no . . . I donât care what you say, he was talking to me about me, everything he said . . .
BELCREDI Â Â Â I couldnât get a word in edgeways, and it was all about you!âwhat?âeven when
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