first.â He had more of an authoritative tone this time around when he said it.
The nurse shifted her eyes to Secret, to the baby, and then back to the man who had just entered the room. âWell, uh, of course.â
The nurse walked back around to the other side of the bed. She placed the baby back in its bassinette and looked to Secret. âIâll be right outside the door.â She glared up at the six feet six inch tall man. âAlong with the other officer.â She said it in such a way to let Secret know that this man in the room had backup, and so did Secret.
The nurse exited, closing the door behind her.
âMs. Miller, Iâve been meaning to get down there to the jail to visit with you, but you know how things go. You get busy. Life happens. You get caught up.â He let out a sinister chuckle. âLook at me preaching to the choir. Iâm sure you already know quite a bit about getting caught up.â
Secret could tell this guy had an agenda, but she wasnât quite sure what he was getting at, yet. So she just listened. He was taking the scenic route, but heâd get to where he was going eventually. So she just stared at him, not replying. She was just along for the ride. The baby cooed, snatching both Secretâs and the manâs attention away from each other.
âCute little baby you got there,â he complimented her. âPink blanket so Iâm assuming itâs a girl.â He stared at the baby a little longer. âWhatâs her name?â
Secret was stumped. Sheâd hoped for a boy and had only come up with a list of boy names. She hadnât thought to think of names for her new baby girl. Her entrance to the world had been so traumatic, that Secret, for a minute there, wasnât even sure if there would be a baby to name. She just wanted to make sure her precious seed was alive and well. She could name her later.
Already lying there in handcuffs, officially an inmate of the state of Michigan, Secret was in a good running for the worst mother of the year award. The fact that she hadnât even thought enough to name her child would have made her look even worse, so she said the first thing that rolled off of her tongue. âDynasty.â She was kicking herself inside. Where in the hell had that name come from? âBut Iâm going to call her Dina.â She said it as if sheâd had everything planned out all along.
âDina. Cute. I was thinking it would be something more like Shaquanda or Qualeequa. You know how you people like to be fancy with names.â He laughed.
Secret didnât laugh. Was this white man throwing a dig at her race? The ride was getting bumpy, not that it was smooth to begin with. Secret was ready to get out of the car. âIâd like to hold my baby, sir.â Secret wriggled her wrists. âCan you remove these please?â
âOh, absolutely. Iâm getting to that.â He looked down at the baby. âI can see how desperately you want to hold your little one.â He nodded, still staring at the baby. âI know all about desperation. About wanting something, someone. Being just that close to them.â He held his index fingertip and thumb just centimeters from each other. âYou almost have them.â He squinted his eyes as if the thing was so minute he could hardly see it. âAnd then bam!â He clapped his hands together. The baby jumped, but didnât cry out of her sleep. âThey are no longer in your reach.â He looked at Secret.
Once again, Secret just listened.
âYour baby girl is right there. Sheâs right within your reach. You can see her, but you canât get to her.â He shook his head. âAwful feeling, isnât it?â
Secret felt like she was riding around tied up in the back seat of a killerâs car. She was ready to escape. âAll I want is my baby.â
âI understand that.â He looked at her