job
.
Someone brushes by me, holding out a bag of bread. âLook, I bought this yesterday and itâs already mouldy.â
The guy gives me a look, then peers at the bread. âYou-can-exchange-it-or-get-a-refund-with-a-receipt.â
I shuffle back into the hot sun.
On Friday Soleil and Libby come home and give me the ten dollars, plus a huge chocolate bar from wherever they went. I feel bad for eating the mini chocolate bars in their jar â all week Iâve been taking a few and itâs half empty now. Soleil doesnât seem to have noticed. Aunt Laura pours her tea and they chat while I channel-surf through the usual crap.
âJakob really enjoyed helping out with the plants,â Aunt Laura tells Soleil. âHe was down there every day.â
âThatâs so nice of you, J-man,â Soleil calls from the kitchen. âYou can be my perpetual plant-waterer.â
âHe needs to get into a club or something,â Aunt Laura tells her. âI tried to talk to him about the rec centreâs camps. Iâm worried about him here the
whole
summer.â
âI can hear you,â I call back, and flick past some cooking show where theyâre boiling lobsters. It gives me the creeps.
âItâs not a secret,â Aunt Laura says. âYouâre moping around here ââ
âIâm not moping.â
âYou are. Youâre sulking.â
Soleil makes a
tsk
sound. âLibbyâd be happy to hang out you know, J-man. Sheâs home from art camp in the afternoons.â
Aunt Laura tries to sound encouraging. âThatâs an idea. You guys could go to the pool or ride your bikes to the corner store.â
I stare at the weather guy explaining tomorrowâs highs. âNo thanks. Iâm fine.â
âJakob, donât be rude. Couldnât you show Libby around? Sheâs still new here ââ
âOh my god,â I mutter. âJust leave me alone.â I throw the remote down and stomp to my room, slamming the door. At least that feels good.
Itâs dark and cool in here because the curtains are drawn. Day number eight of the summer that lasted forever. I leave the light off and sit on my bed, wondering what I should do. Go on the internet? Read? Go to sleep? Dig a tunnel into the middle of the earth? Nothing sounds good.
Aunt Laura knocks on my door. âJakob?â
âIâm sleeping.â
âWe should talk about this,â she says.
Talk? You never want to talk
.
I hear her sigh. âI have to cover a night shift for someone tonight. Youâll be okay?â
âFine.â
Soon I hear the front door close and her car start up. I fumble around and find a flashlight in my bedside table and turn it on. The batteries are almost done. I watch the beam move over my closet, my computer screen, the closed door. I sit there until it fades out and dies.
Weâre making a snowman, the three of us, and Dadâs found a top hat and fancy-looking cane for it. I have no idea where he got those but I donât ask because I know Iâm dreaming this. Around us, kids make snowmen with their parents â there must be dozens of families and dozens of snowmen in the park. Then I see it from above, as if Iâm flying. Ours is the only one with a top hat. Iâm looking for my parents among the families below when the snow starts to melt and everything goes brown, then black, and I hit the ground. Another strange, dark street and Iâm wondering what just happened, but the need to search feels like it will burst out of my chest
.
I wake up with the scratchy carpet on my cheek. My clock radio says 12:36. I pull open the curtains. Itâs a full moon out there, lots of light to see by. There are shadows on the street from the cars and telephone poles. A full moon means you can see a lot better than other times of the month, but it also means weird things happen. Aunt Laura always