don’t want a relationship.”
“And you think no one will have sex with you—without strings?”
She shrugged. “I don’t know. I just didn’t want to go there. Not with guys I know.”
“And not with men who knew James.”
“Yes.”
“Not every man in that city knows you or knew James.”
“I know that, too. I just wanted to get away.” Away from the familiar, away from memories
of the man she’d loved, from the place where the two of them had built their lives
together, where every building, every street, didn’t remind her of James.
“So you came to Hawaii, intending to pick up some random guy and fuck him?”
“Yes.” But now that he said it out loud it sounded like a really stupid idea. “I guess
I hadn’t really thought that one through.”
“It’s not safe, Ella.”
She rolled her eyes. “Guys do it all the time.”
“Guys can take care of themselves.”
“And women can’t? You know I can.”
“Yes, I know you can. I just wish you wouldn’t. Not here. Not by yourself.”
“Not where you can’t keep an eye on me? Come on, Clay. What are you going to do? Stand
in the bedroom and watch over the guy I’m having sex with to be sure no harm comes
to me?”
He looked horrified. “Uh, no.”
She laid a hand on his arm. “I’m a grown woman. And I’m not stupid. I can handle this.”
He shook his head. “I know you think this is a great idea. But there has to be a better
way to jump back on the horse again.”
“If I knew a better way, I’d do it. I’d have already done it.”
“Need it that bad?”
She laughed, and at the same time heat pooled low in her belly.Talking sex with Clay made her body heat up. They’d never had a conversation this…personal,
this intimate before. He wasn’t a “best friend” kind of man. He was a man. All man.
Hot, sexy, but their conversations were usually all business. She’d never thought
of him in that way other than the occasional admiration for his body, his looks, the
way he commanded a room and the men who worked for him. She’d learned a lot watching
him, and maybe while watching him she’d had a feminine appreciation for him as a man.
But in her life there’d always been James. And she’d loved James with her whole heart.
So no other man had attracted her.
But James had been gone for five years now. And in the last year or so, she might
have started noticing Clay as more than a business associate. Still, she’d never once
thought…
Yet here she was in Hawaii, talking about sex with him. Not just sex in general, but
her sex life. Or rather, her not-quite-but-impending sex life. The whole thing was
surreal.
“I might be able to help you.”
Finally. “Great. What do you suggest?”
“What about me?”
Her heart dropped to her stomach. “What?”
“You can have sex with me.”
Her throat had gone dry. Where was that glass of wine now? “Are you kidding me?”
His smile died. “I never joke about sex.”
She’d just bet he didn’t. He probably took it very seriously. She could already imagine…
No. No way. Oh, definitely no way. “I…We…Oh, hell, no.”
She clamped her mouth shut.
Way to insult a man’s ego, Ella.
But instead he tilted his head back and laughed. “So, you think I’m repulsive.”
“Oh, God. No. I didn’t mean that at all. I think you’re hot, Clay. Any woman would
want to have sex with you. I mean, you probably have women falling all over themselves
wanting to…”
Again…she clamped her lips shut when she saw the grin on his face. “I think I should
just shut up now.”
He walked his fingers along the flesh of her back. “No, you’re doing great. Keep going.”
She shivered at his touch. Shawn hadn’t elicited one-tenth of the response in her
that Clay did. This was bad. Really bad. “Don’t you see how this couldn’t work?”
“No.”
“We work together. We own competing businesses.”
“So?”
“We’d have to